Venting The joy when you finally start thinking about it all ending

[MementoMori333]

I'm not sure if this is a universal experience, but I just feel so much happier now that I'm actually researching methods and slowly deciding on a date to ctb. It's just so nice to know that it will all end soon. It's strange, it's the first time I've felt truly happy in a while. The fear is slowly going away and I'm starting to just relax. I'll finally be free eventually.

 

[evrlastingsea]

it's the same for me. my chosen date is still months away, but now it felt like half of my burden feels bearable knowing that it'll end

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as all I want is to be free from this torturous, futile existence, I'd only feel relief if I had the option to peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again, I hope you find the freedom you search for.