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AdiosAmigos

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Jan 12, 2020
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I always think about the bad memories in life without thinking about the happy memories. Now I've been trying to think of the last time I was ever happy and I was at a complete loss for a while. I don't think I've felt happiness in such a long time that my brain just can't process it. However, I've spent a lot of time reflecting and I think I've come up with a few. My first happy memory was coming home from Kindergarten one day and my parents surprising me with a cool plastic knight armor set. It was one of the few times my parents seemed happy together and were also not venting their anger and frustrations on me. The knight set became one of my favorite toys too! My other happy memory is catching fireflies in Kansas with my brothers. They're such beautiful insects and the way they lit up the night was so wonderful.
These are some of my few happy memories that I wanted to share and I wanted to ask you all what have been some of your happy memories?
 
WinterFaust

WinterFaust

Shimmer
Apr 13, 2020
412
I've been depressed pretty much all my life so even my happiest moments were filled with depression, anxiety, and insecurity. But getting my own apartment and living with my ex at the time. Traveling abroad to Germany, Belize, and Italy. Karaoke for my birthday last year. Getting drenched in the rain. Going out dancing with former friends. Oh, all the restaurants I used to eat at because I was a bit of a foodie.

I have a lot of good memories from the recent years. Unfortunately my declining mental health and my inability to cope with loss this past year has made it as if those things never happened. Was nice while it lasted
 
SpottedPanda

SpottedPanda

I'm all about coffee and cigarettes
Jul 24, 2019
612
I remember getting with a woman that I'd been so uncertain about, wondering if it was ever going to happen, and finally getting with her was momentary bliss. Then I remember a holiday to France to pursue parkour, and living in the warm weather, meeting great people and my heroes alike, and feeling how perfect it all was. Then I'd remark on a few dating successes, where, after being shy and inept, I finally became intimate with some women I considered to be really attractive.

Bearing in mind this all took place in the same five year time span, circulating around the age of 24.
 
Raminiki

Raminiki

Iustitia Mortuus
Jun 12, 2020
269
Like you, the bad memories are much easier to recall than any happiness and I've forgotten how it feels due to anhedonia. I saw it said somewhere that you need 10 positive experiences to make up for 1 negative one. Or 10 compliments to every 1 criticism to have a healthy loving relationship.

I mourn for a childhood free of knowledge of the barbarism of the world. And for people I found comfort in.

I experience euphoria during manic episodes. It's the only time I ever feel good, but it's not a good thing to happen to me. Still, when I come off that bipolar high, I grieve intensely for the loss of the happiness. It's like knowing ultimate bliss and then being ripped away from it forever.

Better to have loved and lost? No, because the grieving is unbearable.
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

Visionary
Nov 7, 2019
2,322
This may sound weird but I feel "a little happy" when I play music. It's like a find light in my darkness. But I won't be really happy again. I know how it really felt but I won't come back to that state of mind never again. I am not able to. People tell me I'm bitter and sad but it's the way my body reacts and shows itself for all the shit I've been through.
 
Sad_Autistic_boy_101

Sad_Autistic_boy_101

When I die, you'll love me.
Nov 19, 2019
442
The happiest moments I have are with my carer which is why I talk about him alot. He was the first person to show me love and that I felt safe with. One of my favourite memories is helping him fix his car and him teaching me the basics. Something that I've always wished my biological did but I don't have relationship with them.
 
Baguette

Baguette

Member
Jun 28, 2020
90
The happpiest moment of my life was when I first visited America on holiday as a 10 year old, the way my parents had hyped up New York in particular I thought it was a magical land. Then when I walked out of the airport and felt warm rain on my skin for the first time ever(we only ever get cold rain in Scotland). That was the best time of my life.
 
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NeverGrowUp

Member
Oct 2, 2020
55
I am miserable most of the time, and have been throughout life. Happiness comes for me in minuscule tiny bursts. The most recent happy memory I have is being on Maui with my best friend a few years ago and jumping on a trampoline with a bunch of local surfer kids overlooking a cliff while it rained and a rainbow shone in the sky.
It reminds me of Neverland.
 
Xocoyotziin

Xocoyotziin

Scorpion
Sep 5, 2020
402
I can't remember.

When I was a kid I isolated myself a lot and I remember one day my dad slipped a note under my door saying that he loved me and that he was making my favourite dessert if I wanted to help him.
This reminds me of the notes my mom used to put in my lunch. She printed them out in that pixelated font that looks like it came from an old computer and she'd put a sticker on them every time.

Other kids made fun of me for it and I think I told her and she asked if she should stop and I said no lol.
 
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RedFoxSwims

Member
Oct 8, 2020
43
Beating sans in undertale is the happiest moment of my life. When I get manic I get super happy but that's a different kind of happy. Think happy times 100 that's how it feels. I miss feeling that way. I can't feel joy atm but I pretend like I can. Can't feel sadness either which is a nice bonus.
 
purplesmoothie

purplesmoothie

Experienced
Sep 13, 2018
228
I honestly think the happiest time was when I was overdosing on heroin if only I hadn't woken up.. other than that it was probably camping at big sur with my parents and dog when I was kid and they were still happy together
 
Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,089
1.I was 15. One of the most popular boys in school, age 17, came to my bedroom window late one night and gave me his class ring and said I was his girlfriend. I still can't believe it even now.

2.I won fourth place at my first horseshow. My horse had a sore foot and suddenly took off over a jump, we had never done jumping it was a beginner's class and they were so impressed I stayed on the horse and brought him under control they gave me fourth prize.

3.I finally after much stress over many weeks learned how to put my face under water in my swimming class. I was about four years old.

4. I surfed for the first time, stood right up like I had been doing it all my life even though it was my first time. They said they could hear me screaming the entire time and asked me why. I had never had that much fun in my life. It was Waikiki Beach.

5. On a beach in Florida, by myself, had walked down where it was only me there. I laid down in the warm ocean water and just wallowed in the sand sun and water, just me and the ocean that day, loving each other.

6. Any time I was with my pets. And the time late at night my big orange cat followed me down to the beach and sat on the sand with me, looking out over the ocean, in the moonlight.
 
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AChanceWasted

Member
Sep 1, 2020
10
2016 was the only time I've ever had a woman seriously interested. I had never even known what I had been missing out on until then. Her and I could talk for hours and hours and never feel the conversation slow, never feel like I didn't want to talk. It was amazing. Everything in my life - even the shitty things - were fine, because they'd just make for funny jokes to make with her. I was complete, even if I didn't know I wasn't a month prior. It was everything I ever wanted. And now all I have is this shit.
 
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262653

Cluesome
Apr 5, 2018
1,733
Dreams. The best experience I have comes from the dream world. I was calling the lightning strike, making super huge leaps, jumping from high places and landing unharmed, experience sex, peace, the thrill of the hunt... Almost everything worthwhile seems to come not from the "objective" world. I even love the unhappy parts of the dream world, but the topic is about happy.
 
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Sk1n1M1n

Experienced
Jan 29, 2020
282
Bunking off the social group in town and leaving all of those boring tossers behind, something I would recommend to anyone out that turns up to these so called social groups. The best way to think of as turning up is as boring as having your worst ever day with numbness, lethargy, watching 5 hours of back to back bargain hunt and having meaningless conversation about weather all rolled into one. That's what going to the local art cafe/social club is like.

So when I bunked off and never returned, it was like music to ears I felt I could finally breathe again, I felt eager to listen to music which isn't something I stopped doing whilst I was there, I found gaming and indoor hobbies and I have never looked back since. That was almost 3 years ago, but things are different now because I am uni and the COVID-19.
 
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OverwhelmingDarkness

OverwhelmingDarkness

Get me-owt of here 🐱
Jan 13, 2020
201
I think the happiest moment in my life was when I was about 9 or 10 and I visited one of the Hawaii islands. I spent the full week (or 2 weeks, I can't remember) there just having fun, swimming, and spending time with my family. We went on this boat ride there though, and that sucked. I got sea sick and threw up. Other then that, it was good. I can't remember how it felt though, only the memory.
 
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Chupacabra 44

Chupacabra 44

If boredom were a CTB method, I would be long gone
Sep 13, 2020
710
Playing American football with my buddies. I don't do Facebook, but there is a page for my old high school football team. I had two super eight game films from my senior year over forty years ago. I recently sent these films to one my best buds from our team. He had these digitized and actually asked me yesterday for musical selections to match with the game films. He is uploading the films today (?) to the team Facebook page. No doubt some of my old pals from high school will be jazzed to realize there are tapes of our football escapades. No one knew these tapes existed.

I won't bother watching. My memories are great. Surely some of my friends will be psyched to relieve those glory years. Makes me feel good to help old friends feel good.
 
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NeverGoodEnuff

Specialist
Sep 28, 2020
398
The first day of college, at age 40. The day I graduated at age 45.

As a girl growing up in the 50's/60's, I was supposed to get married, have children, live happily ever after. I didn't learn to support myself. The marriage ended and I was a single mom struggling to feed my children. Because I did not have a college degree, the only jobs I could find were low paying.

I will never forget a conversation I had with my mother, "Mom, you raised me to believe that if I got married and had children, I would live happily ever after. That was a lie!" She thoight for a moment and replied,

"That was revenge."

Remarried six years later to a good man, decided to go back to school full-time while working part-time. The first day, as I walked across the community college campus crying tears of happiness, I found a pay phone (few cell phones then), called my husband, and thanked him for his support. It was the first day of a new life.

When I graduated cum laude, I felt enormous pride. I had a good job in my chosen profession (nursing) already lined up. Worked there for fifteen years, fourteen of which were good.
 
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mathieu

mathieu

Enlightened
Jun 5, 2019
1,091
The happiest time of my life was probably school camp skiing when I was 12.
 

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