diviosd
girl who's sad
- Aug 7, 2023
- 303
This past year it feels like almost everything in my life has gone downhill. Ive lost alot of people; three of my family members have passed away recently, one of them in my care. I've lost most of my friends due to my poor mental health. I lost my job and I'm struggling to find another. There are many more factors but all in all, I'm just in a shit place mentally, and I'm more suicidal than I've been in a long time. meds dont help, therapy doesnt help. The only thing holding me back from doing anything is my boyfriend.
Hes extremely attached to me, we spend most of our time together and I am more or less his only real friend. he's terrified of abandonment and when i even brought up my past attempts, not even mentioning my current state, he sobbed for hours at the thought of losing me. I don't know what to do. He's the sweetest person I know and he genuinely is the one highlight of my life and I would never want to do anything to hurt him, but im hurting too, and im really sick of it.
How do you end your life knowing by doing it youre hurting someone else you love? Ive never had to think about this before, because i barely have a relationship with my parents anymore and even when i was younger living with them there was more tension than affection in my home, and I dont have any friends I would call close. I have had cats but thats not really the same. This is a really distressing dilemma to me.
Hes extremely attached to me, we spend most of our time together and I am more or less his only real friend. he's terrified of abandonment and when i even brought up my past attempts, not even mentioning my current state, he sobbed for hours at the thought of losing me. I don't know what to do. He's the sweetest person I know and he genuinely is the one highlight of my life and I would never want to do anything to hurt him, but im hurting too, and im really sick of it.
How do you end your life knowing by doing it youre hurting someone else you love? Ive never had to think about this before, because i barely have a relationship with my parents anymore and even when i was younger living with them there was more tension than affection in my home, and I dont have any friends I would call close. I have had cats but thats not really the same. This is a really distressing dilemma to me.
