How did I know about N before SaSu, fr?
I've been chronically ill to the point of being bedbound for half a decade, and have been ill and in severe pain for years before that. I also have extreme emotional trauma from experiencing nearly every type of abuse there is, from childhood on up.
So…use your imagination. Because of all of the above, I've known about PPeH, F.E., Dignitas (which I can't afford), and older sites that have been taken down, *long* before I came here. I've long known that N was inaccessible to me, and that most helium now has a ton of additives, that also make it inaccessible.
I have to be honest, I actually find all these questions to be a little sus…answering openly any further just gives the fixer-trolls that lurk here more ammunition for keeping desperate people like myself from having options.
I already found what I need with the help I've found (as long as my stuff tests okay). But I'm not going to give fixers a playbook for how to keep others from accessing the same for themselves. That's by no means fair to others suffering like I am.