The fact that im a hopeless idiot who cant even do simple things is ironically on of the reasons im still alive.

[HermitLonerGuy]

Like seriously i cannot do even simple things that other people can do without thinking twice.

Tie a knot? haha i cant even do that. I would study a diagram and watch a video 100 times, then attempt it and still fuck it up, give it a few goes then panic and freeze and give up because i cant do it right.

Make a mixture? hmmm ok how do i mix this right? xxmm , wait is that mm right? i put that in wrong shit! so where and when does this go? shit! freeze, panic, give up.

Make an exit bag? haha what? i cant even tie a tie. try try try and then freeze and give up! motto of my life.

I seriously think theres a mental deficiency where im just incapable of doing even simple things.

If i had a gun id be long dead.

Right now with no money and being a useless fool i think all i can do is jump , suicide by cop , run into traffic and idk i just cant do basic things.

 

[FuneralCry]

The truth is that life is so unfair and some people are simply disadvantaged through no fault of their own. They really should allow people euthanasia/an assisted suicide option as people are already suffering enough without having to struggle in finding ways to ctb with the risk of methods potentially failing.

 

[Hollowillow]

I'm almost a genius (brain damaged though) but I can't do methods that require chemistry & engeneer.

But I edited a drawing to make it more obvious with shadows



But failed partial. I sat.




Vitamin b & c helps boist my damage brain... But its getting harder

Im tempted to try SN

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

I'm almost a genius (brain damaged though) but I can't do methods that require chemistry & engeneer.

But I edited a drawing to make it more obvious with shadows

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But failed partial. I sat.

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Vitamin b & c helps boist my damage brain... But its getting harder

Im tempted to try SN

thanks for that il have to get a rope and practice that knot tying.

 

[Leemel]

Like seriously i cannot do even simple things that other people can do without thinking twice.

Tie a knot? haha i cant even do that. I would study a diagram and watch a video 100 times, then attempt it and still fuck it up, give it a few goes then panic and freeze and give up because i cant do it right.

Make a mixture? hmmm ok how do i mix this right? xxmm , wait is that mm right? i put that in wrong shit! so where and when does this go? shit! freeze, panic, give up.

Make an exit bag? haha what? i cant even tie a tie. try try try and then freeze and give up! motto of my life.

I seriously think theres a mental deficiency where im just incapable of doing even simple things.

If i had a gun id be long dead.

Right now with no money and being a useless fool i think all i can do is jump , suicide by cop , run into traffic and idk i just cant do basic things.

All the same thoughts as me, are you my twin?

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

All the same thoughts as me, are you my twin?

lol probably

 

[Leemel]

I read your post and say yup that's me.

 

[Someone123]

suicide by cop

Suicide by cop is one I would not do, because people who try this are sometimes injured but not killed, and then they go to prison for a long time- it's not worth this risk.

 

[gomenasai]

Seems like you're too hard on yourself. I also frequently feel the same way but then I remind myself I shouldn't. I believe if you have the right instructions that are written well, chances are you can get it right. But I know what you mean. I'm not good at technical things either. Also remember, you're already suffering, yet you're so hard on yourself. If you were a friend of yours, would you kick them on top of their suffering? Try to treat yourself as though you would treat your friend. Hugs to you

 

[freedompass]

Suicide by cop is one I would not do, because people who try this are sometimes injured but not killed, and then they go to prison for a long time- it's not worth this risk.

Also please don't run into traffic potentially hurting others and at least traumatising them?

Like seriously i cannot do even simple things that other people can do without thinking twice.

Tie a knot? haha i cant even do that. I would study a diagram and watch a video 100 times, then attempt it and still fuck it up, give it a few goes then panic and freeze and give up because i cant do it right.

Make a mixture? hmmm ok how do i mix this right? xxmm , wait is that mm right? i put that in wrong shit! so where and when does this go? shit! freeze, panic, give up.

Make an exit bag? haha what? i cant even tie a tie. try try try and then freeze and give up! motto of my life.

I seriously think theres a mental deficiency where im just incapable of doing even simple things.

If i had a gun id be long dead.

Right now with no money and being a useless fool i think all i can do is jump , suicide by cop , run into traffic and idk i just cant do basic things.

I feel ya in a way, I have a real knack for finding the wrong way to do a thing. Google has been a good friend on many occasions as I'm ok with following clear instructions. I just seem to have no common sense or intuitive powers with practical things so it takes me an hour to do what might take an average person a few minutes. Not that it really matters. I have all the time in the world. It's important to know your limits. I would never for instance attempt to assemble flat pack furniture.

Sounds like in your case it's more than simple impracticality tho. You have some kind of psychological block, maybe caused by trauma? A paralysing fear resulting in severe lack of confidence? The 'freezing' thing makes me think that. It's not intelligence, you're not a fool. And yeah. It is indeed ironic!

I'm almost a genius (brain damaged though) but I can't do methods that require chemistry & engeneer.

But I edited a drawing to make it more obvious with shadows

View attachment 99310

But failed partial. I sat.

View attachment 99311


Vitamin b & c helps boist my damage brain... But its getting harder

Im tempted to try SN

This reply could be construed as encouraging/coaching OP to hang himself and is therefore in breach of the rules. Just sayin.