the company i ordered SN from cancelled my order...

[throwaway3246539]

i cant even put into words how miserable and hopeless i feel...SN was my best bet. now i have to try the exit bag using balloon helium, that s all i have. i wish i would at least know how to hang myself as a backup plan...why is leaving this cruel world so hard

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Which company (use initials)? Did they say explicitly why? You might be able go source it from somewhere else. The balloon helium won't work, so don't bother with that.

 

[throwaway3246539]

Which company (use initials)? Did they say explicitly why? You might be able go source it from somewhere else. The balloon helium won't work, so don't bother with that.

i think i might try partial afterall i m not sure. i m researching it at the moment. co2 poisoning would also be great but i dont own a garage. also, how sure are you the balloon helium wont work? cause i ve seen pictures in which people used it and it worked wonders for them. i know pure helium or nitrogen would be better but i cant get my hands on that, at least not soon enough. and to answer your questions, it's a company from my country. they did not say why, but i assume it s because i m a random person and not a business

 

[Someone123]

i cant even put into words how miserable and hopeless i feel...SN was my best bet. now i have to try the exit bag using balloon helium, that s all i have. i wish i would at least know how to hang myself as a backup plan...why is leaving this cruel world so hard

Balloon helium typically has 20% oxygen, so it's just like breathing normal air- this chnaged years ago. INdustrial, pur helium can work, but is not as easy t get.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like such a frustrating situation to be in. It's so incredibly awful and unfair how we have to suffer so much to find ways to leave this horrific world, suicide really shouldn't be so difficult for us. Of course if it's much easier to leave I would be long gone by this point and I get that it's so tiring feeling so trapped here when you just want to be gone. But anyway I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for, best of luck.