jellyfish11
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- Dec 30, 2025
- 28
last year, i set my date to be november 15th, 2026. i'm canceling it. i'm not sure why, and it is definitely not because i have gained any hope to live. i think, maybe some part of me wants to see someone notice and step in and save me. i also just don't have a reliable method. i wanted to jump, but the more i read about it, the more downsides come up. i don't want to hang myself. and i can't get sn or anything similar. i still live with my parents. they're nosy and look through my stuff (despite me being an adult), and i'm not in a good spot to get a job and save for a place of my own. it's kind of just feeling hopeless for me now.
