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[Garbage Person]

Getting my morning started right. Caffeinated, groovin', body movin!

 

[K-O]

Caffeinated, groovin', body movin!

now that's what i'm talking bout mate! spect!! pls drop in more often
i went from 10 fucoffees a day to only 3 here in rehab! the struggle is real! my poo is in no show ffs..
i need to visit the grave yard to say hello and goodby.. need to forgive myself and let the past go..
night night ss x ends and beginnings x

 

[Deleted member 1465]

now that's what i'm talking bout mate! spect!! pls drop in more often
i went from 10 fucoffees a day to only 3 here in rehab! the struggle is real! my poo is in no show ffs..
i need to visit the grave yard to say hello and goodby.. need to forgive myself and let the past go..
night night ss x ends and beginnings x

Nice to see you, keep at it RAWR!

 

[Lorntroubles]

Sending lots of hugs to you @K-O visiting a graveyard is so tough. Let it out, HEAL, embrace the moment. You want to recover and see the beauty of the world that was stripped from you, and I give you kudos for that.

 

[Garbage Person]

now that's what i'm talking bout mate! spect!! pls drop in more often
i went from 10 fucoffees a day to only 3 here in rehab! the struggle is real! my poo is in no show ffs..
i need to visit the grave yard to say hello and goodby.. need to forgive myself and let the past go..
night night ss x ends and beginnings x

I definitely will, don't know how I overlooked the thread. Lack of coffee is a true tragedy, I need a full pot to make me go. Good luck with the rehab friend, I know how how that goes.

 

[K-O]

I definitely will, don't know how I overlooked the thread. Lack of coffee is a true tragedy, I need a full pot to make me go. Good luck with the rehab friend, I know how how that goes.

Thank you mate! loving your name and avatar! got me missing this flick i love by H Korine

Nice to see you, keep at it RAWR!

Sending lots of hugs to you @K-O visiting a graveyard is so tough. Let it out, HEAL, embrace the moment. You want to recover and see the beauty of the world that was stripped from you, and I give you kudos for that.

Thank y'all for these words you're with me and i dont take that for granted! hugs
Working on PosTrauma is mf sad af.. i long for the day i wont have triggers flashbacks and only the good memories will stay.. x

 

[Garbage Person]

Thank you mate! loving your name and avatar! got me missing this flick i love by H Korine



Thank y'all for these words you're with me and i dont take that for granted! hugs
Working on PosTrauma is mf sad af.. i long for the day i wont have triggers flashbacks and only the good memories will stay.. x

HA thanks! I haven't seen that in a minute. I always recommend Gummo to people and then they either want more or never ask me for a recommendation again lol. Hope you're doing alright today.

DINNER TIIIIIIIIME!!!

 

[K-O]

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HA thanks! I haven't seen that in a minute. I always recommend Gummo to people and then they either want more or never ask me for a recommendation again lol. Hope you're doing alright today.

DINNER TIIIIIIIIME!!!
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bitch gag!! i loved Desighner Drugs tune! yass!
(Julian Donkey Boyz my fave ) and i luuuv this cheeky one as well-

comon you suicidal fuckers live a little!! u know i luv ya ! x

 

[Blue LIPS]

bitch gag!! i loved Desighner Drugs tune! yass!
(Julian Donkey Boyz my fave ) and i luuuv this cheeky one as well-

comon you suicidal fuckers live a little!! u know i luv ya ! x




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I'm just glad people are able to see you mean well with some of your wording and praise you here :) that's uncommon, so embrace it.

 

[K-O]

you mean well with some of your wording

WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK DO YOU MEAN BY THAT YOU MF WANKA? C U Next Tuesday Lips x nomnom..

 

[Blue LIPS]

WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK DO YOU MEAN BY THAT YOU MF WANKA? C U Next Tuesday Lips x nomnom..

Hahaha I want an outfit too!!! Reminds me of when the Red Hot Chili Peppers did the sock routine lol. Take care!

 

[Lorntroubles]

WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK DO YOU MEAN BY THAT YOU MF WANKA? C U Next Tuesday Lips x nomnom..

Love the video, maybe spoiler it so people don't get mad. I know your humor, you're not predatory. It's your thread--just it's a community here with everyone intertwined. Hugz.

 

[K-O]

Spoiler: trigger alert

night night

 

[Lorntroubles]

In the mood for untz untz.

 

[K-O]

untz untz

indeedy dodidoo! x
my libido is back! (thank the mf godz) and i had xxx yesterday! gag! the thrill of having to hide and avoid the cctv and other people.. hehe ive been so good until now i deserved a treat innit..

haven't talked with my mother since November.. part of my recovery process and effort to stay sane and stable.. but i still miss her talking to aliens and shit..
GOOD SHABBAS SS!

 

[K-O]

I WANT TO MF USE! I WANNA BUY 10 GRAMS BLOW AND SOME LIQUID OXY BOTTLES GO HOME AND NOT LEAVE IT FOR A WEEK..
I MISS MY LOVER MY BEST FRIEND MY FUCKING SOULMATE!!! HOW TF COULD HE LEAVE ME? IM ROAD KILL IM SO DONE! ITS MY GODFATHERS BIRTHDAY ANOTHER MF ABUSER THAT I MISS TO BITS! WHY DO THEY SHIT ON YOU AND THEN JUST UP AND LEAVE TO THE HEAVANS? NO FAIR! FUUUUUUCK!!!!!!
WHAT AM I WHEN I HAVE NO ONE TO LOVE? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.. A SHELL.. NO LIFE AFTER DEATH.. D E A T H .. HERE WE GO AGAIN FFS..

 

[Lorntroubles]

I WANT TO MF USE! I WANNA BUY 10 GRAMS BLOW AND SOME LIQUID OXY BOTTLES GO HOME AND NOT LEAVE IT FOR A WEEK..
I MISS MY LOVER MY BEST FRIEND MY FUCKING SOULMATE!!! HOW TF COULD HE LEAVE ME? IM ROAD KILL IM SO DONE! ITS MY GODFATHERS BIRTHDAY ANOTHER MF ABUSER THAT I MISS TO BITS! WHY DO THEY SHIT ON YOU AND THEN JUST UP AND LEAVE TO THE HEAVANS? NO FAIR! FUUUUUUCK!!!!!!
WHAT AM I WHEN I HAVE NO ONE TO LOVE? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.. A SHELL.. NO LIFE AFTER DEATH.. D E A T H .. HERE WE GO AGAIN FFS..

Here for you. Such raw emotions you're dealing with. Just think, how will rehab make your life better? Know it's a process and that time always moves on and to ride the wave a bit. Lots of hugs to you, you brave lil rave girl!!

 

[K-O]

Here for you. Such raw emotions you're dealing with. Just think, how will rehab make your life better? Know it's a process and that time always moves on and to ride the wave a bit. Lots of hugs to you, you brave lil rave girl!!

thank you mate x this tsunami of pain just hit me today and im helpless when it comes to triggers.. i thought i was better and time started to heal me.. and then in a sec everything tumbles down and i find myself in the Black Dogs shadow once again.. this rehab process is mf hard af! its even not about the substances its the way of life and the drug addiction is just another consequence of it.. its being without real skin its hyper sensitivity its highs and lows .. its collapsing and grinding yourself to ash.. its mf exhaustion it is.. drugs take all that away.. i wanna drive that wave again so much i want the drugs love. there's really nothing like it and will never be..
check me out even back then id dress up as a junkie .. lol?..

 

[Lorntroubles]

Reminds me of this. @K-O

¡¡¡¡La cocaína no es buena para tu saludd!!!! Drugs are bad for ya, kids. ;)

 

[Brackenshire]

Hang in there @K-O . Your not alone. We are all here for you. You can do this love

 

[K-O]

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x night night kind souls x

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Cardi B/Meghan Thee Stallion-WAP
Posting more than one link cuz I have seen some that don't work ... I'm sure most have already heard this

 

[Viro_Major]

If you sign for a smooth rollercoaster ride, all you'll get is "a runaway train, never coming back"

comon you suicidal fuckers live a little!! u know i luv ya ! x

Precisely the realisation I got 1.5 month ago when I was visiting Paris. I like, opened my eyes and saw that basic revelation. There's absolutely no cure to chase after but to live more, until your soul, heart and body get the buzz.
Can't wash away the past but can kiss the future, but with determined tender passion, swallowing its mouth with enthusiasm, like a catfish with lips injected with botox would.

Following your efforts from afar ...been mf proud of you ! Unintended, every of your steps have been a major source of inspiration and motivation for self-encouragement. I'm enlarging the traces in the snow before the panorama melts to summertime definitely.
Thus, on my side, I'm well advancing on our "pact" ...you ought to do your part or I'll kick you in the nuts (after research) or sumo your tanned buttocks until they turn blue, undecided yet lol cuz...you ought to keep writing your story. Wanna hear about that party girl that can summon the bumpy obstacles when the world sit and listen.

thank you mate x this tsunami of pain just hit me today and im helpless when it comes to triggers.. i thought i was better and time started to heal me.. and then in a sec everything tumbles down and i find myself in the Black Dogs shadow once again..

Passed through such a phase of fall down this week. By maintaining the direction, only ever a transitory moment, gotta learn the song. Behind the clouds, the sky remains blue. I'm now reminded that by not looking at ones feet, slow evolution comes at a fast pace. Although it takes a tad of consistency with a topping of trust.

i went from 10 fucoffees a day to only 3 here in rehab! the struggle is real! my poo is in no show ffs..
i need to visit the grave yard to say hello and goodby.. need to forgive myself and let the past go..
night night ss x ends and beginnings x

T'was the right track just a moment ago ...no loose sight ? Say no. Wish you finish yer deprogrammation-recontamination wholly




Emitters of sweet emotions here, there there, continue to rock-a-rap the casbah ^^ (I choose to face the wall with straight eyes, the only way to know they bounce at ya)

 

[K-O]

If you sign for a smooth rollercoaster ride, all you'll get is "a runaway train, never coming back"



Precisely the realisation I got 1.5 month ago when I was visiting Paris. I like, opened my eyes and saw that basic revelation. There's absolutely no cure to chase after but to live more, until your soul, heart and body get the buzz.
Can't wash away the past but can kiss the future, but with determined tender passion, swallowing its mouth with enthusiasm, like a catfish with lips injected with botox would.

Following your efforts from afar ...been mf proud of you ! Unintended, every of your steps have been a major source of inspiration and motivation for self-encouragement. I'm enlarging the traces in the snow before the panorama melts to summertime definitely.
Thus, on my side, I'm well advancing on our "pact" ...you ought to do your part or I'll kick you in the nuts (after research) or sumo your tanned buttocks until they turn blue, undecided yet lol cuz...you ought to keep writing your story. Wanna hear about that party girl that can summon the bumpy obstacles when the world sit and listen.



Passed through such a phase of fall down this week. By maintaining the direction, only ever a transitory moment, gotta learn the song. Behind the clouds, the sky remains blue. I'm now reminded that by not looking at ones feet, slow evolution comes at a fast pace. Although it takes a tad of consistency with a topping of trust.



T'was the right track just a moment ago ...no loose sight ? Say no. Wish you finish yer deprogrammation-recontamination wholly




Emitters of sweet emotions here, there there, continue to rock-a-rap the casbah ^^ (I choose to face the wall with straight eyes, the only way to know they bounce at ya)

cheers mate! good luck on your path and keep them eyes on the prize yeah?
longing for a free style road trip.. have a good one x

 

[Garbage Person]

I need to wake up or something

 

[Jumper Geo]

I just remembered this track when I was reading my thread on gruesome ways to CTB, lol I had to add it here, I loved this song and it brought back some really pleasant memories.



Cheers

Geo

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Janet Jackson-What Have You Done For Me Lately

 

[Viro_Major]

Get inspired : flawed execution covered by flawless spirit. Isn't it the way it's supposed to be ?

longing for a free style road trip.. have a good one x

"Il n'y a pas de hasard, que des rendez-vous" ~ Paul Elouard

 

[Viro_Major]

Bass ! Haunting. That ant nearby the lion might escape the footstep, but no escape the shakey

Must not forget the diet : brussel sprouts, spinach, chard, fennel, aspargus, fava beans, artichokes ...
You need the drugs, k, but don't let down the greens hoes




And to say thank you for the things you haven't had... damn right

 

[K-O]

I need to wake up or something

I @Garbage Person ! you take me back feeling nostalgic GusGus was lit mate! x i used to be obsessed with The Knife back then! also loved these guys- (shit audio full album :) )


some more of dem girly beats! good shabbass




A LOT OF DRAMAS HERE IN REHAB.. MATES FALLING LIKE FLIES OR GETTING KICKED OUT FOR USING DRUGS INSIDE.. PSYCHOTIC EPISODES.. FUN IN THE SUN.. GETTING FAT OVER HERE AND IM ACTUALLY LOVED AND TBH ITS THE FIRST INSTITUTION I FEEL COMFORTABLE IN.. LEARNING ABOUT SELF LOVE?.. AND VERY BASIC VITAL STUFF I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO DO IN A HEALTHY WAY.. ITS A ROCKY JOURNEY.. FUNNY SAD.. TODAY IS A NICE DAY AFTER A ROUGH PATCH (CALLED MY DEALER AND WAS PACKING MY SHIT UP THEN THE PEOPLE HERE CALMED ME DOWN SOMEHOW BLESS THEM) SO ON MY FEET AGAIN NOW, CHEERS Y'ALL MUCH LOVE X A CHEEKY BEAT FOR DESERT