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LostHope556

LostHope556

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Mar 31, 2025
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Another important step! Going to test my SN tonight!

The excitement I feel is surprising. It feels like I'm preparing to go on an awesome vacation. Like life will actually be awesome.

I feel hope, which is pretty funny given that it's SN. Guess that's what happens when it hurts for too long.

Hopefully it's pure, fingers crossed guys! šŸ¤ž
 

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onmywaytothebusstop

onmywaytothebusstop

~ Transgirl looking for eternal tranquility ~
Feb 9, 2025
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I want to try SN so bad. Lucky you.

What dose are you trying?
 
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I want to try SN so bad. Lucky you.

What dose are you trying?
I'm not actually taking it yet, just making sure I have good stuff. Actual SN and in relatively good purity. Got it from a chemical supply place, but I just want to make sure my ducks are in a row
 
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onmywaytothebusstop

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I'm not actually taking it yet, just making sure I have good stuff. Actual SN and in relatively good purity. Got it from a chemical supply place, but I just want to make sure my ducks are in a row
Ah i see, i got confused. I bought a test kit as well but pretty sure it's the shiit and never bothered testing.

I did weigh it out and the moment that i was doing it gave me the bigest rush i ever had.
 
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Ah i see, i got confused. I bought a test kit as well but pretty sure it's the shiit and never bothered testing.

I did weigh it out and the moment that i was doing it gave me the bigest rush i ever had.
Maybe I should try weighing it out. That sounds pretty awesome! See you actually have it now and it's legit?
 
onmywaytothebusstop

onmywaytothebusstop

~ Transgirl looking for eternal tranquility ~
Feb 9, 2025
235
Maybe I should try weighing it out. That sounds pretty awesome! See you actually have it now and it's legit?
I didn't test it. I just weighed out the dose, crushed the benzos and put everything in litle vials for when the time comes. Pretty sure it's legit, not too worried about it.
 
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I didn't test it. I just weighed out the dose, crushed the benzos and put everything in litle vials for when the time comes. Pretty sure it's legit, not too worried about it.
What are you using for the antiemetic? Or are you thinking about boofing it?
 
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Knocking on heaven’s door
Oct 6, 2023
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Will you post your results?
 
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onmywaytothebusstop

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What are you using for the antiemetic? Or are you thinking about boofing it?
I recently got a quetiapine prescription both regular and fast acting but i had ordered metoclopramide prior to that.

The moment i'm ready to ctb i probably won't use the quetiapine more than theprescribed dose though as i don't want my gp to get any problems from it.i'll just take a regular 200mg pill just like when i take it to go to sleep combined with meto.
 
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Always interested in other people's point of view and scientific findings
 
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OP, I know you didn't say this, but jokes aside, wanted to remind everyone (esp anyone who might not know) that there is a sticky at the top of the suicide discussion side that explains why you should not physically put the sn in your body in any amount until its your personal time to go. Meant with care, not patronizing or trying to be an ass xx
 
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OP, I know you didn't say this, but jokes aside, wanted to remind everyone (esp anyone who might not know) that there is a sticky at the top of the suicide discussion side that explains why you should not physically put the sn in your body in any amount until its your personal time to go. Meant with care, not patronizing or trying to be an ass xx
Oh yeah, I'm testing it with aquarium strips, there's an image attached of them in the post. I could have made it more clear though in the actual text, my bad
 
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I wish you the best in plans.
 
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I hate psychiatry
Apr 30, 2025
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I recently got a quetiapine prescription both regular and fast acting but i had ordered metoclopramide prior to that.

The moment i'm ready to ctb i probably won't use the quetiapine more than theprescribed dose though as i don't want my gp to get any problems from it.i'll just take a regular 200mg pill just like when i take it to go to sleep combined with meto.
so quetiapine works as AE?
 
Alexandra_

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Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
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Good luck)
 
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