Terminal cancer diagnosis

[teej9582]

Up until last week my life was pretty normal. I have a good job, a relationship with a girl I love and a family that loves me. More importantly I was fit and healthy, both physically and mentally.

Everything changed on 05/13/23. I was admitted to ER due to blood in my vomit and extreme dizziness.

After a week in hospital and several tests, I got the news on the 05/20/2033 that I have incurable stage 4 cancer. Doctors have told me that chemo is an option but emphasized this will only prolong my life as opposed to any potential cure.

Having read about he horrors of dying from cancer, this is not something I want to subject both me or my family to.

Suicide is my only option. I live in the UK so finding a weapon is pretty much out of the question. I'm quite competent with the dark side of the internet so it would be no issue obtaining benzos and opioids. I would prefer something quick, safe and relatively painless. Obviously regardless of my choice, my family will experience great pain, but I feel they will understand that I went out on my own terms rather than whatever this cancer has got in store for me.

Any advice is greatly appreciated.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you manage to free yourself from a slow, prolonged and horrific death, I wish you the best, it's so inhumane how in this country even terminally ill people are denied the option of assisted suicide, I hate how the UK is so anti-suicide.

 

[Georg]

In your case you can check dignitas

 

[ayololly]

This is heart breaking. I'm so sorry you're having to make this decision without medical assistance.
Surely a terminal diagnosis grants you access?
I'm sure you've looked into options but ultimately I hope that you can navigate the time you have left with support.

 

[Zaphkiel]

If you have the means, nothing beat inert gas IMO.
But considering your case, you should be able to have access to some official organisation, like dignitas, as it was said.

 

[nozomu]

In your case you can check dignitas

Seconding this, OP. Dignitas will help you due to your terminal illness and you can go peacefully using N. They even handle the paperwork and such.

I'm sorry about your diagnosis.


Link to Dignitas:

Accompanied Suicide

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'm sorry you find yourself at such a shitty place in your life. This world really sucks. I hope you can find the answers you seek.

 

[lookingforsanctuary]

I'm so sorry to hear this. What a shock for you. Sending you my best.

 

[Kerrtu]

I'm very sorry to hear of this diagnosis, OP.

I'm doing a little research on any possible assistance or support you might be able to find in the UK:

MDMD (My Death, My Decision)

Humanists UK (they're currently supporting a man named Paul Lamb - he is seeking to end his life after he became paralysed in a car accident and now lives, or rather exists, with excruciating pain)

Dignitas, which has been mentioned in this thread by other members

Exit, based in Scotland (not to be confused with Exit International)

Assisted Suicide in the UK for further reading if interested.

 

[Jezzibell]

I'm so sorry. What an awful thing to happen. It certainly puts things in perspective.

I have been doing research from the compilation thread. Like you I'm in the UK and have found benzoate and opiates on the dark web but I'm also new to this and so a bit nervous of buying. I search for UK suppliers for UK delivery because customs will prove a problem.

I wrote a post about shallow water blackout. You don't need to buy anything. More relevantly in your case is that if you have an insurance policy, your death will be classified as accidental. You can do it at home or in a public place of water like the sea. Depending on the current though you may not be found for some time.

The full resource thread is at

Suicide Resource Compilation

All the links to threads, videos, audio, downloads, and information found here are being made available only for educational purposes, and have been shared by users; we cannot assure the accuracy of the data. This means the way you use this data is fully your responsibility, that you need to...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Shallow water blackout

Shallow water blackout

This is a very easy, painless, free method, that can very easily pass as accidental. Directions: https://imgur.com/a/cNul4r7 I haven’t seen it mentioned before, but they sure like to warn us about it, basically giving us instructions by doing the opposite of their points Instructions...

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And again. This must be devastating for your whole family. I'm so sorry

 

[The anhedonic one]

Up until last week my life was pretty normal. I have a good job, a relationship with a girl I love and a family that loves me. More importantly I was fit and healthy, both physically and mentally.

Everything changed on 05/13/23. I was admitted to ER due to blood in my vomit and extreme dizziness.

After a week in hospital and several tests, I got the news on the 05/20/2033 that I have incurable stage 4 cancer. Doctors have told me that chemo is an option but emphasized this will only prolong my life as opposed to any potential cure.

Having read about he horrors of dying from cancer, this is not something I want to subject both me or my family to.

Suicide is my only option. I live in the UK so finding a weapon is pretty much out of the question. I'm quite competent with the dark side of the internet so it would be no issue obtaining benzos and opioids. I would prefer something quick, safe and relatively painless. Obviously regardless of my choice, my family will experience great pain, but I feel they will understand that I went out on my own terms rather than whatever this cancer has got in store for me.

Any advice is greatly appreciated.

So sorry.

 

[befree]

Maybe this is an option:

Search results for query: VAD

sanctioned-suicide.net

Search results for query: VAD Switzerland

sanctioned-suicide.net

Assisted suicide, VAD, Pegasos, Dignitas...

Hi all! 😊 Anyone here has applied or is going to apply for assisted suicide/dying in Switzerland or in somewhere else? Anyone going to travel for assisted dying? Thank you!

sanctioned-suicide.net

Pegasos Application

Hello, Does anyone have advice or suggestions for the Pegasos Swiss Association?

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm very sorry to read this. It'ss horrifying. I wish you all the best and that you can find a solution that gives you freedom without pain and I wish everyone can understand you and your own decisions. All the best!!

 

[swanlife]

I'm really sorry about what you're experiencing.
I lost two family members and three friends because of cancer. There are ways today to not feel any pain, so i can't agree on those horror stories you read. Maybe before you decide to go just talk to an hospice doc how they would help you. After that you can still do it your own way.

 

[spøgelse]

Sorry to hear about your diagnosis.
Due to your terminal illness, Dignitas is an option. I hope everything goes smoothly for you and that you don't have to suffer.

 

[Letgo]

I am so sorry for the situation that you and your family are going through. I hope that in the middle of it all you can find peace, whichever way you decide to go. All of you are being thought of.

 

[stage4johnny]

Up until last week my life was pretty normal. I have a good job, a relationship with a girl I love and a family that loves me. More importantly I was fit and healthy, both physically and mentally.

Everything changed on 05/13/23. I was admitted to ER due to blood in my vomit and extreme dizziness.

After a week in hospital and several tests, I got the news on the 05/20/2033 that I have incurable stage 4 cancer. Doctors have told me that chemo is an option but emphasized this will only prolong my life as opposed to any potential cure.

Having read about he horrors of dying from cancer, this is not something I want to subject both me or my family to.

Suicide is my only option. I live in the UK so finding a weapon is pretty much out of the question. I'm quite competent with the dark side of the internet so it would be no issue obtaining benzos and opioids. I would prefer something quick, safe and relatively painless. Obviously regardless of my choice, my family will experience great pain, but I feel they will understand that I went out on my own terms rather than whatever this cancer has got in store for me.

Any advice is greatly appreciated.

I'm in the same boat as you,pal! I have stage 4 esophogaus cancer. The weird thing is,I have spent the last four years of my life being suicidal! Everyday I'd say to myself,"I want to die."
And then I get this shit!
I have to think my ctb thoughts had at least some influence on my body getting cancer.
Like you,I want to end this at my chosen time.

 

[wantrelief]

I'm in the same boat as you,pal! I have stage 4 esophogaus cancer. The weird thing is,I have spent the last four years of my life being suicidal! Everyday I'd say to myself,"I want to die."
And then I get this shit!
I have to think my ctb thoughts had at least some influence on my body getting cancer.
Like you,I want to end this at my chosen time.

Hi guys, I have cancer too. I had a lung transplant 10 yrs ago, first tumour occured 4 yrs ago, now a new tumour on my leg. I dont know my options yet, but after a transplant you must take immunsupressants which will always heighten cancer risks and, if you have cancer, definitely lower your Chances to survive. I have had so many operations in my life , I just cannot take another heavy disease and I am not Willing to go for chemotherapy, since due to my immunsupressants my chances are poor anyway.
I was happy the first years after transplant, but then I wanted to become pregnant so badly. None of my doctors supported me. I ended up with suicidal thoughts which worsened this summer. I also believe this is why my tumour grew. Now I definitely want to leave everything behind. I am so desparate, havent slept for 4 days in a row now as I cant put my mind to rest.

 

[dreamingofrest]

I am so sorry this has happened to you, I can't imagine the pain of having a life you're happy with and being dealt with this card. I hope you're able to get help from medical professionals to ease your suffering as much as possible. Hopefully one of the programs other people mentioned here can help you and your family. <3

 

[Umacon]

Up until last week my life was pretty normal. I have a good job, a relationship with a girl I love and a family that loves me. More importantly I was fit and healthy, both physically and mentally.

Everything changed on 05/13/23. I was admitted to ER due to blood in my vomit and extreme dizziness.

After a week in hospital and several tests, I got the news on the 05/20/2033 that I have incurable stage 4 cancer. Doctors have told me that chemo is an option but emphasized this will only prolong my life as opposed to any potential cure.

Having read about he horrors of dying from cancer, this is not something I want to subject both me or my family to.

Suicide is my only option. I live in the UK so finding a weapon is pretty much out of the question. I'm quite competent with the dark side of the internet so it would be no issue obtaining benzos and opioids. I would prefer something quick, safe and relatively painless. Obviously regardless of my choice, my family will experience great pain, but I feel they will understand that I went out on my own terms rather than whatever this cancer has got in store for me.

Any advice is greatly appreciated.

Man so sorry! So what about your desicion to suicide? How are you?