Aim

Aim

🤍
Sep 12, 2023
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This is a sad, tragic and a very complex dilemma!
 
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Anon1337

Mage
Oct 1, 2018
547
Yeah. My life hasn't changed much since I was a teenager. I thought life might change as I got older but it never did. It can get better but it didn't for me.
 
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melancholia_melodia

melancholia_melodia

Member
Nov 29, 2023
56
I feel very, very sad when I see so many young people like me taking their own lives.... We are currently experiencing an overlooked mental health pandemic in our society and unless something changes, such as people becoming more considerate and supportive of mentally ill people, we will continue to see more and more young people on this site....
 
kilowatt

kilowatt

Guns don't kill people I kill people
Sep 9, 2023
377
I always wanted to die young. By young, I was thinking strictly within my teenage years. I still deeply regret I'm here to this day and I didn't just get it over with when I had the time. I can't believe I made it to 20. Sometimes I feel pity for myself when I realize I've achieved nothing in life and all I'm doing is taking college courses in the bedroom I've been rotting my entire childhood in. I had such big plans to move out by 18 and have one of those fun romanticized lives, full of travelling and friend, yet right now all I have is a spark of life attached to my soul that I can't seem to get rid of. Suicide has been one of my biggest goals for half of my life now and I just feel like a coward.
 
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Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,331
He manipulated the narrative seemingly to his advantage only for it to blow up in his face. What an idiot. Guaranteed he'll never actually take accountability for all the minors he led to this site. He seems like a narcissist tbh
He is actually aware of it I believe. At the very least he responded to criticism of adding popularity to sasu by basically saying something that can be dumbed down to "it's okay because I made this video for a good cause!" A lot wrong with it all and really no remorse or care. It's all about him. Tell him he is bringing children to the site and he'll just say "this is what's wrong with sasu" like we somehow recruited them lol.
 
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Adûnâi

Adûnâi

Little Russian in-cel
Apr 25, 2020
1,023
I have no idea why people hate minors on this website at all? If kids want to die, it's probably because they are abused - so the sooner the die, the better? I dunno, normies are weird.

But then again, teens are not kids? No idea about the terminology either. I started thinking about the possibility of non-existence at 13 (that's not a euphemism, I do mean in a philosophical sense).
 
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lostinmythoughts

lostinmythoughts

Student
Nov 30, 2023
112
good for them! I wish I died when I was a teen! It's just an add on time and more responsibilities, stress and sadness! What's there in life they will be missing? Getting married? It's very rare to see happy couples you work like a dog to make end meets, you will be bullied by your spause or partner, then you end up more depressed you age you become ill your teeth will fall out, and much more.. please feel sorry for yourself
 
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Adûnâi

Adûnâi

Little Russian in-cel
Apr 25, 2020
1,023
then you end up more depressed you age you become ill your teeth will fall out, and much more..
Unless artificial intelligence makes us immortal. This is like the only reason that gives me pause. Imagine if AI magically solves all problems, and they kill themselves on the precipice of such change! (But my argument makes little sense because dead people are by definition without suffering, so like, it's fine either way lmao (unless they chose a painful way to die, or felt bad when doing it)).
 
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UnwillingSavior

UnwillingSavior

Mr. Self Destruct
Nov 2, 2023
114
When I was 15 is when my suicidal ideation began. It hit hard and I think it's because children don't have enough rights; kids and teenagers are infantilized regardless of age. It's never okay to see them as property or as someone that can't think on their own & make their own decisions (I am NOT implying I support minors being given permission to certain kinds of consent, just to be clear. There are still things minors should be kept away from). If I was treated fairly and given criticism to my thoughts and actions as if I was an adult back then, I think I'd have turned out better. Instead I was shutdown and neglected/invalidated.

As a 20 year old now, I'm sadly still wishing to ctb. I still have a particular date in mind for when I will truly commit, via the same method I planned 5 years ago.
 
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poofart

poofart

Member
Apr 28, 2023
22
I've wanted to CTB since I was a small child. It hasn't gone away. I hope that it does for most young people, but it clearly doesn't for everyone. Not for me.
 
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Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,331
I have no idea why people hate minors on this website at all? If kids want to die, it's probably because they are abused - so the sooner the die, the better? I dunno, normies are weird.

But then again, teens are not kids? No idea about the terminology either. I started thinking about the possibility of non-existence at 13 (that's not a euphemism, I do mean in a philosophical sense).
Between this and your anger towards me when I mentioned I don't give information on methods to people who I suspect are kids is a big red flag. If you aren't a minor, then I beg of you to stay the hell away from those that are.
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Global Mod
Feb 13, 2020
3,126
I have no idea why people hate minors on this website at all? If kids want to die, it's probably because they are abused - so the sooner the die, the better? I dunno, normies are weird.

But then again, teens are not kids? No idea about the terminology either. I started thinking about the possibility of non-existence at 13 (that's not a euphemism, I do mean in a philosophical sense).
It's not hate. It's the law.
 
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Adûnâi

Adûnâi

Little Russian in-cel
Apr 25, 2020
1,023
Between this and your anger towards me when I mentioned I don't give information on methods to people who I suspect are kids is a big red flag.
Please, define a red flag? To my mind, it's a meaningless buzzword. But in this case, are you implying I rape kids? Because I do not. I don't interact with people at all, hence I wish I had any flags in my orifices, but there's nobody to insert them there.
It's not hate. It's the law.
Of what country? Pornography is illegal in the vast majority of lands. Suicide is even more so. It's just that Americans only care about two broken laws - terrorism and paedophilia.
 
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Death is my goal

Death is my goal

pathetic failure
Aug 25, 2022
506
idk what chance to being free you talking about...
 
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IWishToDie

IWishToDie

I check notifications once per week
Dec 31, 2023
480
The destruction of the family unit and it's consequences...
 
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forced2live

Forced2live
Aug 15, 2022
44
Death is liberation, life sucks. I respect everyone who kills themselves regardless of their attributes such as age, race, socioeconomic status, political views etc ofc for every generalized rule there are exceptions. For eg: you are not allowed to kill yourself, if you have kids. Killing yourself will cause them alot of harm in many forms. So, teenage suicide is respectable and I don't consider them to be weird or depressing.
 
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TwoWaysOnly

Member
Dec 18, 2023
20
Ultimately, the decision to CTB is a personal one. If a teenager genuinely doesn't want to be here, it's not for me to stop them. However, suicide is a permanent solution to what may be a temporary problem...

I honestly feel bad for teenagers these days. I'm 37, so I grew up before social media was a thing. There was not yet any genuinely whacky ideology at work, and what was there did not have the reach.
right
 
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stuckinthemud

Student
Nov 14, 2023
120
Also kids weren't drugged to their eyeballs with mind altering meds when we were kids.
They wonder why so many teens are suicidal after being slowly poisoned for years. Connect the dots
 
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DesperateOne

DesperateOne

Specialist
May 25, 2023
318
Everyone will die one day anyway. Doesn't make a difference if someone dies now or later. What I consider sad is people being so selfish that they force someone to come into existence and suffer through life, all because they are selfish pleasure seekers. Like, if you want a child that badly then there are many orphans out there that desire a home and adoptive parents, but no, you want a mini copy of yourself that badly, huh? It couldn't get more narcissistic.
I think people having kids is fine, but I don't think everyone should have kids. If you are mentally ill, below 25 or are clearly not capable of being a parent due to whatever reason you shouldn't bring a conscious being into this world under such circumstances since you are pretty much just setting them up for hell.
 
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uniqueusername12

Member
Jan 18, 2024
23
100% agree.

To anyone under 30 even that is on this site. Please reconsider. Life can offer many, many wonderful things.

I have had wonderful things and lost them. But you might get your chance to get them and shine through to old age.

Even though I feel a lost cause. It would make me so happy if at least one person understood this and carried on. I'm rooting for you!
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,450
All suicide is sad and tragic.
 
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willitpass

willitpass

Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
Mar 10, 2020
2,941
As someone who became suicidal at 10, nearly attempted at 12, and had their first attempt at 13, I see it as sad in a different way. I don't think of it as a "they had so much life ahead of them, they could have gotten better!" situation. I myself am walking proof that living through it doesn't mean it will get better. All I got from surviving is years of trauma and burning through all treatment options to the point I have none left. I know many who have done the same. I see it as a horrible loss of childhood. For someone to be driven to suicide at such a young age they must have been in horrible pain for so long. Their childhood was ripped from them. Who knows how many years they struggled before they reached that point. It's horribly sad for someone so young to go through enough to be driven to suicide.

I don't believe minors should be allowed on this site, for legal reasons and I just wouldn't feel comfortable knowing a child is being aided to die. But I don't believe that all young suicides are some mistake that they would have grown out of. I think the notion that age equates to potential is misguided. If someone is 18 and wants to die but has never been to therapy, yes get them therapy first! Throw treatments at them. But if someone is 18 and has been in therapy and tried every med, been hospitalized, tried alternative treatments, for years, who are you to say they should continue to suffer because maybe it might get better?
 
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falling_snow

falling_snow

Mage
Aug 9, 2023
516
Life is shitty and I don't judge teens for entering. But also, who the fuck thinks that at 18 my brain just fully develops? Well, the mods do a great job at restricting minors, because I do think that 10/12 is just too young for this forum. But afterall it's their choice, I wish I could have ended earlier, but whatevs. I really can't do anything about that.
 
ms_beaverhousen

ms_beaverhousen

-terminally sad-
Mar 14, 2024
1,268
Imagine growing up being forced to go to school which is like a prison system in most places till you're 18 and then you finally get the chance to be free and live your life on your own but then having to kill yourself it's just so sad when I think about my life.. like I gone through all that shit to end up like this at 25. To me suicide more than anything is about having access to methods. If I had a sure method I'd be gone by now
God it feels like you still have time when you're 32 like me. I swore I woukdnt turn 30 if I was still like this. Sucks being stuck with the means for a method. 25 is still possible those. 20s are the golden years, besides actual "golden years."
 
sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
God it feels like you still have time when you're 32 like me. I swore I woukdnt turn 30 if I was still like this. Sucks being stuck with the means for a method. 25 is still possible those. 20s are the golden years, besides actual "golden years."
I don't plan on living past 25. I agree that the 20s are the golden years. The actual "golden years" must be pyrite (fool's gold) because I see nothing golden about them (adulthood, middle or old age)
 
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divinemistress36

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2024
3,266
I was lucky that I was able to finish my teenage years out in a small school for kids with mental illness (well mostly teen moms) but there was some of us there for mental illness . It was only like 110 people and we could all relate and had caring teachers. I wish all teens had that option. I think social media is really contributing to the uprise in teen sucides
I don't plan on living past 25. I agree that the 20s are the golden years. The actual "golden years" must be pyrite (fool's gold) because I see nothing golden about them (adulthood, middle or old age)
More financially stable and discovering who you are that's about it
 
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ms_beaverhousen

ms_beaverhousen

-terminally sad-
Mar 14, 2024
1,268
I don't plan on living past 25. I agree that the 20s are the golden years. The actual "golden years" must be pyrite (fool's gold) because I see nothing golden about them (adulthood, middle or old agei

I don't plan on living past 25. I agree that the 20s are the golden years. The actual "golden years" must be pyrite (fool's gold) because I see nothing golden about them (adulthood, middle or old age)
Well it's just wishing thinking in the hope that you hang on. Just a reminder that do as much as you can while you're still in your twenties if you do stick around. Actual golden years are just for the happy or ignorance is bliss people. I've been suicidal since before the age of 12 so I get it.
Can I ask what your plan is?
 
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