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dannycho

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May 6, 2026
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I'm so desperate to go and end my pain. I just ordered SN from a source but I don't have any other drugs such as antiemetics and benzos. My severe ADHD makes it almost impossible to organize my thoughts and make simple plans now, let alone a SN protocol. I saw that video of a man dying to SN (may he Rest in Peace), and I'm thinking if it's worth suffering for 10 or so minutes for my pain to end.

I was set on firearm but it's expensive and I'm so scared to do it. I also may be flagged now because I've been committed 3x now.
 
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Jrileniwa

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May 6, 2026
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In a way you could say most of us are desperate.
I think that, it's possible to reframe it as having to put with a little more pain to finally not feel any at all. The antiemetics are there to help you get there more easily and with less chances of failure, which means it can still work, from what I understand. But I don't know much more, I can only wish you good luck.
 
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Jun 25, 2019
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Hey. I'm planning on CTBing soon with only SN since it is insanely difficult to get benzos or antiemetics in my country. I saw the video. I'd rather that than living, sadly. I've also had adhd for as long as I've known, and i understand. I wish it didn't have to be this way, for either of us. Just know it won't be comfortable, painless, or peaceful without antiemetics or benzos. If you can wait until you can get them, I'd recommend it.
 
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lpdsvm

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Jan 11, 2026
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I have just SN. I don't care about other medications I have no access to. I might get OTC medications just to feel better. I won't eat for sure because it will be all out right away. I might make 3 doses because I will vomit a lot.
 
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