I have been researching VAD @ Pegasos in Switzlerland. I feel like being surrounded by people when I die would be more comforting than dying alone in my bed. Maybe having a doc put the needle in my arm and connect the IV bag would make it seem more graceful, even though I have to start the drip to administer. If I can be a spirit in the sky, I have a lot of people and animals I'd like to spend eternity with.
If I chose this option, I would also be able to have someone looking after my dogs when I go versus someone not finding the dogs and I for multiple days or more than a weeks time. I'm more concerned with my dogs starving, running out of water, and them wondering wtf happened to me.
I know my grown kiddos and friends I do have left would be devastated to see me go. I dont want to put anyone I love discovering me dead in my bed, especially my kids which would likely be the case if I cbt at home
I do have the money but it is A LOT before travel expenses and I would either be paying for someone to go with me or paying the fee for someone I dont know to verify my identity when I die. I suppose I can look at it as purchasing a great used car to drive me to eternal grace.
I also dont know their definition of "sound mind." I've suffered very severe depression, agorophobia, and quite a bit of anxiety since I quite literally ruined my life several years ago, after a neuro illness and med withdrawal that caused a 6 month long manic rage. But I've only treated for my depression/anxiety through an online provider to date. Prior to the above, I was a normal f#cking person. I cannot see a Provider saying I'm not of "sound mind." I hold a full time job, a professional license, pay all my bills, have never been institutionalized, among many other things. I just have felt I'm living a nightmare every single day for over 2 years, I go to sleep every night hoping I dont wake up and I'm not happy when morning comes to rinse/repeat the same misery all over again.
I also suffer with chronic health conditions, neuropathy, retinopathy, and chronic pain which only seem to be getting worse.
N would be far cheaper but my poor dogs. If they dont get fed at the same time everyday they wont know what to do. And I hate the thought but they say your dogs will start to eat you after a few days, so on top of not wanting them to eat me, I'm afraid theyll ingest N as they do
Regardless, I have to keep going until Spring 2023 when the suicidal and contestibility clause ends on my life insurance policy. My birthday is in March so what better time to go on a trip to Switzerland and end it with VAD?
Sorry for the REALLY long post, I would appreciate the feedback though....
If I chose this option, I would also be able to have someone looking after my dogs when I go versus someone not finding the dogs and I for multiple days or more than a weeks time. I'm more concerned with my dogs starving, running out of water, and them wondering wtf happened to me.
I know my grown kiddos and friends I do have left would be devastated to see me go. I dont want to put anyone I love discovering me dead in my bed, especially my kids which would likely be the case if I cbt at home
I do have the money but it is A LOT before travel expenses and I would either be paying for someone to go with me or paying the fee for someone I dont know to verify my identity when I die. I suppose I can look at it as purchasing a great used car to drive me to eternal grace.
I also dont know their definition of "sound mind." I've suffered very severe depression, agorophobia, and quite a bit of anxiety since I quite literally ruined my life several years ago, after a neuro illness and med withdrawal that caused a 6 month long manic rage. But I've only treated for my depression/anxiety through an online provider to date. Prior to the above, I was a normal f#cking person. I cannot see a Provider saying I'm not of "sound mind." I hold a full time job, a professional license, pay all my bills, have never been institutionalized, among many other things. I just have felt I'm living a nightmare every single day for over 2 years, I go to sleep every night hoping I dont wake up and I'm not happy when morning comes to rinse/repeat the same misery all over again.
I also suffer with chronic health conditions, neuropathy, retinopathy, and chronic pain which only seem to be getting worse.
N would be far cheaper but my poor dogs. If they dont get fed at the same time everyday they wont know what to do. And I hate the thought but they say your dogs will start to eat you after a few days, so on top of not wanting them to eat me, I'm afraid theyll ingest N as they do
Regardless, I have to keep going until Spring 2023 when the suicidal and contestibility clause ends on my life insurance policy. My birthday is in March so what better time to go on a trip to Switzerland and end it with VAD?
Sorry for the REALLY long post, I would appreciate the feedback though....
