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1000winds

Student
Jul 24, 2022
152
what is your thought on suicide notes? i think it doesnt matter how much you explain yourself, people will never understand my reasons for ctb.
 
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Shivali

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Jun 9, 2022
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Completely agree
 
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Lone Wanderer

Student
Jul 28, 2022
104
If you're going to commit suicide, I think it's a most to leave behind a note for your loved ones. You're going to cause them a lot of pain, so the least you can do is leave them a note, but you're also right people will never understand the reasoning behind one's CTB. Because they aren't you, so they don't know how you truly feel. No one will even if they say they do. Though it's your decision to make. Whatever happens I wish you the best in this life and the next.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I think that I would personally see it as best to leave a note rather than leave nothing at all. It may give them some closure and might mean that they are not left with unanswered questions if they have some sort of explanation as to why the person chose to do this. I do agree that there is a chance that people will never be able to really understand no matter what is said, but I would still leave a note.
 
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1000winds

Student
Jul 24, 2022
152
i feel like leaving a note will make matters worse. my reasons for ctb really boil down to the fact that i dont want to be anyone's burden and i feel they will be better off without me. i have been depressed for a very long time. after my psychotic episode last year my husband and i have grown distant. i dont want to extend his misery of having to be with me. in the past months i have discovered that he is cheating on me and is also contemplating on marrying a second wife. he sees me as a curse in his life. what note can i leave him? well as for my parents, they are pensioners now and i dont want to burden them with my problems. i know they will ask why i did it and will never understand i didnt want to be their burden.
 
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Lone Wanderer

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Jul 28, 2022
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i feel like leaving a note will make matters worse. my reasons for ctb really boil down to the fact that i dont want to be anyone's burden and i feel they will be better off without me. i have been depressed for a very long time. after my psychotic episode last year my husband and i have grown distant. i dont want to extend his misery of having to be with me. in the past months i have discovered that he is cheating on me and is also contemplating on marrying a second wife. he sees me as a curse in his life. what note can i leave him? well as for my parents, they are pensioners now and i dont want to burden them with my problems. i know they will ask why i did it and will never understand i didnt want to be their burden.
Hey, listen I know pro-life comments on this site is very frowned upon, but I just want you to know that you shouldn't throw your life away because of some dick head that couldn't keep a promise. You are a very beautiful woman; you'll find someone way better than him. And you are no burden to anyone. But hey, this is your life you get to choose when you want to call quits... Whatever path you end up choosing I wish you the best.
 
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nixdeath

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May 3, 2022
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I'm writing a notebook to give to some family members after I die, mainly I'm doing it to share stuff I was always scared to share, or never had the chance to. Things like information about music I like and why (music is a huge part of my life). I'm doing this in the hopes that they will feel more at peace with my death.
 
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1000winds

Student
Jul 24, 2022
152
Hey, listen I know pro-life comments on this site is very frowned upon, but I just want you to know that you shouldn't throw your life away because of some dick head that couldn't keep a promise. You are a very beautiful woman; you'll find someone way better than him. And you are no burden to anyone. But hey, this is your life you get to choose when you want to call quits... Whatever path you end up choosing I wish you the best.
i honestly dont want to cbt because of him. i have been depressed for a very long time and havent really felt a sense of belonging. i honestly dont have a place in this cruel world.
 
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1000winds

Student
Jul 24, 2022
152
i am not goung to leave a note because i dont want to be misunderstood. i suck at getting a point across.
 
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Lone Wanderer

Student
Jul 28, 2022
104
i honestly dont want to cbt because of him. i have been depressed for a very long time and havent really felt a sense of belonging. i honestly dont have a place in this cruel world.
Believe it or not we're actually on a really similar path. I won't go into full detail about my problems because it's basically all the same as yours. I too feel like I don't have a place in this cruel world. Just trying to make a few more happy memories with the people I love before I go.
 
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DragonSlayer

Member
Jul 23, 2022
8
I feel like I wouldn't know where to begin. I might start writing a suicide note, and get so caught up in it that it becomes a book. I might then get inspired to become a writer, try to sell it, watch it flop, and then kill myself anyway
 
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slushy

Member
Feb 19, 2022
89
Depends. If you have people you truly love, don't you want to leave them that final "i love you?" or that you're sorry that what you're doing will cause them pain? even if they don't understand why i want them to hear that at least.

but if you don't have people in your life you care about, i dont guess you have to have a note
 
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lexiahhs

Member
Jul 14, 2022
36
i want to write a note but my parents have no respect for my privacy. idk if i want to ctb in my room or in a little abandoned trail behind my house. id want to leave a text or some sort to a friend, but id rarger not end up alive and have to say sorry for my text and being like im still alive. i do want someone yo possibly log into my socials and text my friends telling them whats going on so they dont hear it in any other crazy ways. my online friends would also have no knowledge and i just want them to know what happened to have closure from me just disappearing
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
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They're all going to blame themselves, at least for a while, no matter what you say in the note, wondering if there was anything they should have picked up on, or if they could have done something to stop you. Guilt is part of the grieving process.
 
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Euthanza

Self Righteous Suicide
Jun 9, 2022
1,446
I think it's important to notice clearly and straight forward:

1. DNR, do not resuscitate
2. HEWSF, help euthanize when suicide fails

I made up the second one lol, but actually it's inspired from actual terrific event when mom can't understand his vegetative son who can only blink to say he was still wanting to die, poor soul

 
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notAfather

suited for
Jul 5, 2022
17
If you want, you can get one of those auto-text apps so you can type out a message to be automatically sent to whoever you want at a scheduled time and date of your choosing, namely after you're already dead so nobody tries to 'save' you. Addressing people at an individual level is easier than trying to sum everything up and stick it on a piece of paper.
 
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Dried_Ink

Member
Aug 1, 2022
44
I'll write either a 10-page essay with intro, supporting paragraphs, conclusion, and bibliography of citations or some based yet vague one-liner like "fuck it, we ball."
 
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Nolife62

Member
Aug 23, 2022
84
1st the way I feel about suicide.
While I understand everyone has their own thoughts and reasons. I guess the reason I haven't CTB yet is fear, life has been hard and painful for me since childhood and I don't want my death to be the same, I'm 62+yrs old. I'm sure many will agree, when I analyze my life it comes down to I guess I really don't want to die, I just want this life to end a life full of pain ( both emotional and physical) heart aches, bad impulsive decisions, rejections, all I've ever wanted was to be normal like everyone else. I want THIS life to end but I really don't want to die. I think a lot of people feel the same.

2nd as far as leaving a note.
I've always spoken my mind, so I've discussed with the people that mean the most to me the reasons for my decision and some day I'll follow through. I've explained my quality of life, my emotional pain and now physical pain. I get the usual response, but we want you around, we want to be able to call and talk to you and so on.... My response to them is " so the fact that I'm in extreme pain both mentally and physically doesn't matter to you as long as you can look at me, now who's being selfish". I've tried working through this, I've gone to counseling and taken medications but there comes a point when enough is enough.
Also tell them it's not going to happen now ( so they don't get you involuntarily admitted ) but someday it will happen with out warning. You only have to have this conversation with the people closest to you so when people ask what happened they can say, if they want to, is the pain was unbearable, untreatable and unimaginable for us to understand but they're at peace now and no longer in pain.
So I won't be leaving a note because the people that matter already know. I've had this conversation with my kids and siblings my spouse died 10 years ago I've been trying to get the courage ever since, in the last 5 years my health has deteriorated and an injury made me stationary.

Sorry for the long post
 
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takemenowpls

Experienced
Aug 19, 2022
237
Note or not people will think what they will anyway. Most people can't relate to what is happing to us.
 
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