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interim

Member
Feb 25, 2019
38
I want to leave some money behind and hand written will, so I think suicide node is more sure way to avoid homicide suspicion.

Also, even if there are just a few people that know you, they deserve some explanation. It's not easy though. I'm working on my note for a week now. My problem is that I don't want it to be too negative, so people start to pity me or blame themselves, or too care free, so they think I had no reasons and I just gave up, and left them without consideration.
 
seekingoblivion

seekingoblivion

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
454
I'm gonna write a brief one saying it's no one's fault and life is just a mess. I'll probably try to explain how struggling through many more years of a meaningless existence is not an attractive prospect and I'd rather take the greatest control and cease my own existence right now.
 
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time2go

Student
Mar 5, 2019
126
I've wrote mine weeks ago.

One for my ex, apologising for my many mistakes and for all the shit I did that's led to me for doing this.

One for my parents.

One for my best friend, my only friend really.

And one with general stuff like what too do with my money.
 
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Misanthrope

Misanthrope

Mage
Oct 23, 2018
557
@Redt2go
Basically I read other letters and the things families regretted most or felt the most blame for and addressing those in my letter

What conclusions did you come to in your research?
 
Gray Wounds

Gray Wounds

A Phantasmagoria
Jun 27, 2018
575
I tried to write one. But I also threw it away. Because it really doesn't matter to me what they'll think after I exit. After all, I'll be dead and the dead couldn't care less about the living.
 
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Quinlor

Quinlor

The stranger
Feb 21, 2019
1,058
Why I should write one, nobody cares about you in life! Fuck off everyone and everything... In my death

Look like a good suicide note
:smiling:
 
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Samuel

Samuel

Wise
Apr 25, 2018
243
I don't know if I will leave a note or not. The note would be for my family, but I may wait until they pass before I ctb.

That's my kitty in my profile pic
 
Sixfeetunder

Sixfeetunder

Specialist
Jan 12, 2019
319
Mine will have some directions (such as how to contact my work) and telling my family that it's not their fault and there's nothing they could've done. There's one family member that has contributed to this, but I won't mention that in the note.
 
Katxe

Katxe

Member
Mar 6, 2019
11
I will leave a manuscript suicide note in my room, and I will leave my sketch book too. I don't have many people who will care about my death, but... I was thinking if someone found my book or my note, someone will thinking about me when thay read, and this is comforting.
 
GeorgeJL

GeorgeJL

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2019
1,621
Yes you should write a suicide note. Personally I will write a note and write as much as I can without it being too wordy. I will write as much meaningful things as I can.

HOW TO WRITE A SUICIDE NOTE
archive.ashspace.org/ashbusstop.org/Note.html
 
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Peeloffallmyskin

Member
Apr 7, 2019
13
I had a letter seven pages long... I scrapped the last and I'm considering abandoning the whole thing now. It's probably better to keep it short and simple. I realised that it would just make my family angry to read the whole thing. It felt pretentious.
 
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throwaway777

throwaway777

一人、部屋で、独り。
Oct 3, 2018
641
mmm i dont think there's anything i could say to make it hurt less... i ve always been suicidal and parents know it so it wont be exactly a surprise .. and anyway i have difficulty in explaining why i want to kms
 
PinkBlossom

PinkBlossom

BlackOut
Apr 10, 2019
8
Yeah I have so much I want to say...but I know no one wants to read a long drawn out suicide note.
 
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CursedForDisaster

Student
Apr 1, 2019
187
I currently have a rough note written out in case I'm in the moment one day, it just says my basic goodbyes/explanation and details to access my cryptocurrency. Soon I plan to write an updated goodbye along with a will and a playlist of songs to play at my funeral, I want those songs to sum up every good and bad memory in my life, music means a lot to me so that's important...I want to plan everything out as detailed as possible to help ease the pain for my loved ones, they're the only reason I'm still waking up in the morning.
Haha. I can relate to feeling more overwhelmed by sitting down and writing a note than by planning how you'll die. Last time I made an attempt, I left a very sincere (and VERY brief) note, basically saying how sorry was, and reassuring everyone that it was not their fault. My family found and read the note--how humiliating. But at least now that's one less thing to do before I try again. Lol.
Wow I had the same thing happen, wrote a brief note and my family found it...bad times haha
 
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Honigwaffel

Student
Apr 9, 2019
154
I had a letter seven pages long... I scrapped the last and I'm considering abandoning the whole thing now. It's probably better to keep it short and simple. I realised that it would just make my family angry to read the whole thing. It felt pretentious.
Absolutely. After I finished writing my note it was almost 5 pages long. I am breaking it down to one page at the moment, but it is very hard.
However leaving without anything for your friends/family just makes it much more difficult for them. A friend of mine ctb two years ago with no note or anything. His family almost split apart and his sister went from being a succesful student to a drug addict because she thought it was her fault.
 
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GreyMagic

GreyMagic

The more you care, the more you have to lose.
Feb 21, 2019
173
I use song lyrics as inspiration often direction. Sometimes just change lyrics enough that won't be done for copyright issues and of course change it enough that's its relevant to me too.
 
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dayseeker

dayseeker

Being as an Ocean
Apr 8, 2019
18
Something simple and straight to the point
 
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