Help suicide notes/text messages before attempting to CTB?

[cath55555]

I'm pretty much ready to CTB (or at least attempt to) whenever, I have my stuff ready. I've written a goodbye note to send to my friends. I'm just really struggling with sending it. I know to do it at a time they won't see it in time to try and stop me and stuff. I just can't stop picturing them reading it and it makes me so sad my stomach turns. any advice for getting over this or what might help me send it? I don't want to go without telling them I love them and it isn't their fault.

 

[alreadyfound]

If you have loved ones, you still have a reason to live, and I'm sure they'll help you if you can talk to them. They want you to live because they love you, and killing yourself would inevitably hurt them. Even if your pain is unbearable right now, there's still hope for you !

 

[uklad38]

I plan to leave a goodbye note once my sn arrives but I'm going to do it by delayed email for a day or two after. That way if my attempt fails I can cancel it before it sends but if I succeed , then they receive the email

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Agreed, sending it in real time isn't good for anyone involved. However, if you're having that strong a reaction to the idea of them reading it, I'd examine that & make sure it's not a sign that you aren't sure/ready. Nothing wrong with waiting if that's the case.