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☆AwaitingEntropy☆

☆AwaitingEntropy☆

Snuffing the Light Out
Nov 6, 2021
208
I'm happy. This isn't anyone's fault. I love you all.
 
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Life interrupted

Life interrupted

Trapped in life
Mar 18, 2022
140
This was an unnecessary painful journey. I'm better of dead!
 
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DontplayGod

DontplayGod

She/her
Feb 6, 2022
123
Everyone should have the right to die with dignity
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,429
"There is nothing you could have been done, I'm sorry."
 
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Kismet

Kismet

life is pointless
Feb 16, 2022
141
I do not want any special attention for my death.

I don't think I will write anything though. It seems pointless. No matter what gets written, it's going to be the same as if nothing was written
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,158
I'm sorry I could not make this work
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,115
I'm tired. I'm broken. I tried. I failed. I'm free.
 
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DPJ187

Student
Apr 14, 2022
128
I die happy. I wish you all peace and love.
 
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Velvet Fortress

Velvet Fortress

Member
Dec 13, 2021
71
Fuck y'all, I'm outta here
 
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downndone2

Living in misery
Jan 23, 2022
1,270
"I love those that cared, my heart/soul was broken."

I hope you find peace whatever you decide
 
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Riddle

Riddle

Student
Mar 25, 2022
124
Who fucking farted???

Sorry, but the thread reminded me of this Nick Swardson bit on how he would ctb

 
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sueoffside

sueoffside

forget dbt and cbt i wanna ctb
Dec 11, 2019
44
this was unavoidable I love you all I'm sorry
 
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lobster salad

lobster salad

overcooked :(
Aug 27, 2020
251
"I bet you feel great now. Fuck yourselves, go celebrate!"
 
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Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
847
Fuck this shit.
I'm gettin out.
Love you cats.
Bye.
 
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T90-Alpha

T90-Alpha

Hopeless
Apr 21, 2022
139
Don't try to recover my Hard drive data
 
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lavendersrue

lavendersrue

Perpetual Dreamer
Mar 28, 2022
16
Humorous: "Sorry, don't think I'll be coming in to work today."

Serious: "Don't cry. Even the prettiest of blossoms wither one day."
 
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TheYounger

TheYounger

Aria Math
Jun 7, 2020
140
Sorry Mom and Dad. This life is painful.
 
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Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
Bpd is hell, thank you guys but let me go
 
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Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
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Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
What are your worst symptoms?

I think largely its how intense my emotions are, both positive and negative emotions can be so intense they feel painful.

That and the de-realisation and dissociation. I hate feeling such a disconnect from the world around me.

Not a symptom but having the knowledge that this illness could've been prevented has been a tough pill to swallow. Do you have bpd?
 
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Weebster

Weebster

Everyone is alone. Everyone is empty.
Mar 11, 2022
1,683
I think largely its how intense my emotions are, both positive and negative emotions can be so intense they feel painful.

That and the de-realisation and dissociation. I hate feeling such a disconnect from the world around me.

Not a symptom but having the knowledge that this illness could've been prevented has been a tough pill to swallow. Do you have bpd?
How could it have been prevented? I have cptsd. There's some overlap
 
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Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
How could it have been prevented? I have cptsd. There's some overlap

It's something that's still being researched but bpd is the result of trauma, usually repetitive trauma that goes untreated or unrecognised before the age of 7/8 ish. It can also be caused by invalidating or unstable environments (usually the home). If I had been protected and my trauma recognised I might've ended up depressed or anxious, but without bpd. Not saying those are better, just different. It also seems a lot of people who go on to develop bpd were seemingly more sensitive kids, already feeling too much from negative experiences. How I was raised and what I experienced imprinted essentially permanently onto my personality and who I am (although nowadays with correct treatment some can go into 'remission').
 
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BigG91

BigG91

I'd rather be homeless with good health.
Aug 21, 2021
191
" Please Don't Save Me "
 
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waitingforrest

Elementalist
Dec 27, 2021
842
"Funerals and coffins cost too much, just bury me raw." ;p
 
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Hate you

Member
Apr 14, 2022
44
"Fuck you, this is my choice not yours to make" - to parents
 
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MicropBaldCurrycel

Specialist
Dec 29, 2021
314
im sorry Mommy i didnt save you, i love you.
 
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Experienced
Mar 5, 2022
226
This is no one's fault but my own
 
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hopelessdreams

hopelessdreams

life and its opposite
Mar 1, 2022
176
hell will be better than my pain here
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,897
I cannot exist without her, my life is pointless, my enjoyment of it gone
 
Lizzy

Lizzy

Member
Feb 9, 2021
5
If you could only write a suicide note with ten words or less, what would you say?

Planning to go soon and have written lengthy notes before therefore I don't really have the capacity to do so again. I feel I should leave a small one regardless and was just wondering what others would say if they had a limit.
life is soup, I am fork. Throw soup out window.

okay fine on a real note:

"I'm looking forward to this. So sorry to hurt you."
"Did what I could, just exhausted. Peace out"
"Cremate me. Very sorry, this is so relaxing though"

A little over 10 words and maybe a little too "edgy" but a spin on a well known Dylan Thomas poem:
"Go gentle into that goodnight. Laze, laze into the dying of the light"
 
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