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Seliculare

New Member
May 26, 2026
4
Hey,
Ive got a huge hurdle on my back. I was arrested with a few pills classified as low priority and told it likely won't go to the court. That was 3 years ago. Well, it did. Ive got such a fine that I won't be able to pay it in time, which in turn will be changed to jail time. I don't know how much jail time, but anywhere between 6 months and 3 years. In other words I ruined my life. There're other reasons I don't wanna mention here(too much text), but this sentence was a nail to the coffin.

So over the years Ive been collecting quite a few psychiatric medications, all of which are legally prescribed. The question is if worst come worst and I have to go to jail will this combo erase my existence:
-1 liter of 40% vodka, can be increased up to 2l without throwing up. 3l if spread over a few hours.
-30 2mg Clonazepam pills
-16mg of buprenorphine
-30-60 10mg propranolol pills
-30 75mg pregabalin pills
-a few leftover zolpidem

I also have a few Xanax pills, venlafaxine, mitrazepam. Can access midazolam and shitty street heroin, but it'd be hard and dangerous.
 
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hdead

Specialist
Jun 2, 2026
355
Hey, sorry you find yourself in such a tough spot.

I hate to be the bearer of bad news but you're unlikely to succeed with such a combo... :/
 
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Seliculare

New Member
May 26, 2026
4
Though to hear. I remember getting knocked out completely by vodka and benzos in the past, even hospitalized once. If you can answer, what should I add to the mix?
 
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hdead

Specialist
Jun 2, 2026
355
I think you've possibly already have the answer, seeing your comment on the HL thread..
 
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Seliculare

New Member
May 26, 2026
4
Unfortunately no. My opioid tolerance is through the roof and I have no access to Anything harder than H. Fetty, analogues and zenes could knock me hard, but I have no access to these.
 
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BradGuy123

Arcanist
Jul 6, 2025
491
I'm sorry you're going through this. I think your arrest was ridiculous. I think if you possess something like that it shouldn't be a crime as long as you weren't caught selling. You weren't hurting anyone else by what you were doing.
 

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