Discussion Stupid, small things that keep me alive

[deadanddecomposing]

I think the most effective things that have kept me from killing myself have tended to be small. The world sucks, but wildlife is so amazing to witness. I'm behind my peers in life, but sometimes I get to eat really good food, even if it's just junk food. Hell, even fresh air. I'm stressed out socially, but hot showers feel really comforting. One of the less small things is my pet bird, who I know no one else in my life would care for nearly as passionately.

Does anyone else working towards recovery have silly little things that keep them around?

Sorry if this is a little dumb, but since there's a recovery section, I thought it might be relevant.

 

[victimized]

something maybe contributing a lot to me being still alive is strawberry lemonade lol. and music!!

 

[deadanddecomposing]

something maybe contributing a lot to me being still alive is strawberry lemonade lol. and music!!

Strawberry lemonade is super good! It's been ages since I've had, but that needs to change. Music is also huge for me. I have an mp3 player with a bunch of music downloaded on it so I can listen to music without relying on my phone or data or wifi.

 

[victimized]

i have a full vinyl collection i love music smmm and u HAVEW To try the all natural strawberry lemonade from sonic its by far my favorite and the ice is a perfect amount of crunch

 

[Cloud Busting]

This isn't dumb at all, for gods sake Sylvia Plath wrote Tulips… about just wanting to die in the white sterile peaceful hospital while just not being able to cuz of those horrible yet beautiful tulips…

Etikas suicide note, oh I watched it so many times! It stood out to me because you could tell he didn't even really want to die… he was sad that he was never going to see how attack on titan ends…

Considering how small vast and tiny we are in comparison to the vast and mostly undiscovered universe… it makes sense the smallest things are the ones we cling to the most.

The best things in life are free…

And never feel silly or dumb for anything that gives you happiness. Everyone, no matter who you are… deserves happiness in this inherently screwed up fucked up world..

Ppl will judge you and shame you for the way you chose to recover…. Or how long it's taking, or any criticism or distrust or discomfort you may at all have at all towards professional help…

Don't let them make you feel guilty! They can all fuck off. Your recovery is yours alone and for you and only you. You deserve it…. Even if you don't feel like you do. ):

 

[deadanddecomposing]

This isn't dumb at all, for gods sake Sylvia Plath wrote Tulips… about just wanting to die in the white sterile peaceful hospital while just not being able to cuz of those horrible yet beautiful tulips…

Etikas suicide note, oh I watched it so many times! It stood out to me because you could tell he didn't even really want to die… he was sad that he was never going to see how attack on titan ends…

Considering how small vast and tiny we are in comparison to the vast and mostly undiscovered universe… it makes sense the smallest things are the ones we cling to the most.

The best things in life are free…

And never feel silly or dumb for anything that gives you happiness. Everyone, no matter who you are… deserves happiness in this inherently screwed up fucked up world..

Ppl will judge you and shame you for the way you chose to recover…. Or how long it's taking, or any criticism or distrust or discomfort you may at all have at all towards professional help…

Don't let them make you feel guilty! They can all fuck off. Your recovery is yours alone and for you and only you. You deserve it…. Even if you don't feel like you do. ):

That's a really good point about us being small in regards to the universe and therefore small things are more meaningful. It's interesting cause while we're tiny relative to the universe, we're giant compared to other animals and other living things. Thinking about it just has me thinking that size is a social construct. Everything's relative and just because what keeps you going is small to others doesn't mean it's small to you and something that's big for others isn't always big for you.

Like who determines what's considered small? Meaning is man-made and we choose what we apply it to. If meaning is found in music and fresh air, then that's huge and meaningful.

 

[heywey]

Going into a toasty warm building when it's cold outside
Going into an air conditioned building when it's hot outside
Waving at people on boats and trains
Vanilla
A random stranger smiling at you and it feels like they mean it
Freshly laundered sheets
Falling asleep accidentally
When your hair looks really nice
Those basil plants they sell at the grocery store for like three bucks
Sticking your arm out the window of a car going fast and feeling the wind
Cats
Dogs
Taking your shoes off after a long day
Carpet/rugs, wood floors, tile floors
When a controller fits your hands perfectly
Street musicians
Other musicians
Little doodles artists leave around
Birds
Pens
Windows
Clouds
The beach at night when no one's around
The forest during the day when the light shines through the leaves and everything's green
Getting tipsy, not out of habit or to block bad thoughts and feelings, but when it's actually fun
Wildflowers growing where they shouldn't
Getting a package in the mail
Snowglobes
Bouncy balls
Office supplies
Comfy headphones
Staring out the window on a bus/train/etc and listening to music and thinking about life and it feels like a movie
Salt
Rainstorms when there's been a drought
A jacket that fits just right
Warm lighting at night (especially from lamps)
LED strips
Laptops
Plugging a plug into an outlet
Soft close drawers and cabinets
Gum
Eating outside
Eating curled up on a couch
Eating curled up on a bed
Cracking your knuckles
Satisfying yawns
Playing a game with someone and getting so distracted by the conversation you forget to keep playing and just talk
Cookie dough
Caterpillars (the animal, not the construction equipment)
Giant cranes (the construction equipment, not the animal)
Looking over a high ledge or balcony
Spinning and getting dizzy
Swinging really high on a swing and the moment of weightlessness when you hit the peak
Old trees
VERY old trees
New trees
Sex and/or masturbating
The pop of opening a soda can
Leaves turning orange in fall
Subwoofers
Bicycles
Scars from doing dumb things as a kid
Nostalgia
Seeing a person recognize their flaws and work to overcome them and being happier for it
Lending things, being lent things
Rollercoasters
Libraries
Used books with dog-eared pages, notes in the margins, underlined passages
The way people communicate easily and support each other when facing common troubles like natural disasters etc
Chairs that fit the curve of your back
Nice soap
Free water (at restaurants, water fountains)
Opening windows and doors when the weather's nice
Babies laughing uncontrollably at the weirdest things
Variegated leaves
Buttons (the mechanical kind)
Buttons (the clothing kind)
When a song makes you super emotional even when it doesn't have lyrics or they're irrelevant to the feelings
Impulse purchases that turn out super worth it
Smoothies
Iridescence
Holidays
All you can eat buffets
Heavy blankets
Electrical tape
Arts and crafts
Ice cubes
Fire
Eating a whole bag of chips in one sitting and kinda regretting it but kinda not
Embroidery
Really big things like trucks and mountains and castles and the pyramids
Really small things like beads and seeds and tiny boxes and figurines
The way old timey people talk
The moon
The moon again because I really like the moon
Archaeological discoveries
Modern medicine like ibuprofen and measles vaccinations and antibiotics
People who dedicate their lives to very specific things like collecting stamps or growing petunias or making an imaginary universe
The texture of wood
Crystals (they just come out of the ground like that??)
Gears
Stained glass windows
Music boxes
Local nicknames for local things
People who go by their middle names (you're a little bit cooler than the rest of us)
The sound of an unfamiliar language
Left handed people
Door knobs
Locks and keys
Cool sticks
Old books and movies and stuff that try to be progressive and sometimes fail miserably from a modern perspective but sometimes end up weirdly ahead of their time
Wondering if someone else out there is having the same thought as you (that thought being: wondering if someone else out there is having the same thought as you)
Weird hazy childhood memories
Having just clipped your fingernails
Showing off something you're skilled at
Bubbles
Deep fried food (when it's fresh)
Reflections
Fish
Animals like raccoons and squirrels and bears that use their paws like hands
Whales
Fun facts
Tall grass