willitpass
Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
- Mar 10, 2020
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Time just seems to drag on and on. This is the longest month of my life. It could not go any slower.
How did you survive SN?When I joined here over 4 years ago I never would have imagined this on my potential tickets to the bus. I've survived SN, drowning/hypothermia, and partial, what are the odds a little cut is what takes me out. Somewhat comical honestly. Everything I've lived through and this could be it. I really hope that my fever keeps rising, that really will be the telltale sign of if it's really septic or not.
I really feel you there.not letting anyone know that I'm struggling at all… It's lonely and isolating.
Start an IV on myself and push distilled water has been on my mind today. I need to look into how painful it would be though.
After over a decade of going through hell you learn how to adapt and carry on with life as normally as possible. Not much of another choice if I don't want to spent my life in psych wards again. I've never been more physically run down in my life. My body is exhausted from everything I've done. I'm doing my best but really not keeping up with things like I used to or like I wish I could.I'm not a doctor/medical professional, but I have a feeling that would be really painful :(
I still keep checking this thread with hopes for you. I'm genuinely shocked that you've been strong enough to keep up with your daily routine considering what you're putting yourself through. You've been going through literal hell since I joined this site (probably well longer than that).
A whole string sounds really weird. You could rule out the possibility that it comes from the vagina by using a tampon/disc/cup and see a) what it looks like when you get it back out and b) if it keeps happening despite that.Once again getting really TMI here for anyone who isn't looking to read about strange bodily functions. I've been noticing a lot of mucus discharge when I wipe the last few days. I just figured that for some reason I'm having a massive increase in vaginal discharge all of a sudden. It's been clear and relatively thin so I wasn't worried about a yeast infection or anything and didn't give it any mind. Well I've just got to pee and happened to peak down before wiping and saw a long string of clear mucus going all the way from me to the toilet water. It hit me that I think it's coming from my urethra not my vagina, and if that's the case I'm pissing so much mucus it's incredibly visible. Mucus in the urine is normal but in such trace amounts you can't see it with the naked eye, you shouldn't be pissing strings of it. Problem is all the info on potential causes states UTIs, STDs, or kidney stones. I'm not having any other symptoms that would indicate I have a UTI or kidney stones I'm not having any pain or burning or anything of the sort. And I don't suspect and STD either. My only guess that I could find research to support is dehydration but arguably I've been better hydrated the last few days when this all started than I have in awhile. My only other guess is somehow related to kidney damage from the NSAIDs. I suppose it's possible I have an asymptomatic UTI, but I'm not sure.
To be honest I'm not even really going to investigate it any further. Even if it is coming from my urethra I have no intent of going to the doctor to get whatever is going on treated, and it isn't painful or smelly or anything, so I'm just going to let it be. If it's just vaginal discharge then no harm no foul. If it's something else then it can play its course, whatever it is. Maybe it's an infection and I'll finally go septic!A whole string sounds really weird. You could rule out the possibility that it comes from the vagina by using a tampon/disc/cup and see a) what it looks like when you get it back out and b) if it keeps happening despite that.
That's the answer I anticipated, but thought I might as well try. Hugs.To be honest I'm not even really going to investigate it any further. Even if it is coming from my urethra I have no intent of going to the doctor to get whatever is going on treated, and it isn't painful or smelly or anything, so I'm just going to let it be. If it's just vaginal discharge then no harm no foul. If it's something else then it can play its course, whatever it is. Maybe it's an infection and I'll finally go septic!
I only slept one hour last night. I'm so tired but I don't want to allow myself the luxury of sleep.