wantingdignity
Little lost
- Apr 5, 2025
- 161
I know I've discussed this on here before, but how the fuck do I feel like my body is my own? It's being made so much worse by Lexapro making certain parts of my body bigger. I want to hide all of the time. I don't want to be perceived by anyone. Then other times I go the opposite way and want to do risky things with anyone I can find. I'm in more of a "hiding" mind space now where I don't want to leave the house. I just want to wear oversized dark clothing. I don't want people looking at me.
How do I deal with this? I hate men so much. I hate that there is an expectation to look good for them. Men don't care what you look like or if you want it or if you're of age. I hate feeling their eyes on me, or them touching me for some fucking reason when I'm at work.
I hate that men are willing to ruin you so they can have a few minutes of pleasure for themselves. I hate that they can be violent as a "mistake." I don't know how to pick up the pieces.
How do I deal with this? I hate men so much. I hate that there is an expectation to look good for them. Men don't care what you look like or if you want it or if you're of age. I hate feeling their eyes on me, or them touching me for some fucking reason when I'm at work.
I hate that men are willing to ruin you so they can have a few minutes of pleasure for themselves. I hate that they can be violent as a "mistake." I don't know how to pick up the pieces.
