Venting stood on a roof today,

[waistcoat]

today i got high n just kinda. stood on the roof for a bit.
looking down, realising if i jumped i'd probably die
i felt nothing
literally nothing
no fear, no being scared, not even relief or happiness, just. nothing

i think if i felt what i usually felt when thinking about death (relief) i would have jumped


i've spent every evening since aug 31st very high as i dont want to think
i shouldve died that day
i need my sn to get here faster

 

[hippiedeath]

Years ago My mom had me come help at her 14th floor office in Manhattan. The window opened fully. I looked down and it scared me. I realized the jump would kill me. Very odd to find an office like that. That was like the N of jumping.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I went on the Brooklyn Bridge and felt electric in my legs as I approached the fence on the top. Another time I was stopped. That was the time I could have done it. I was so done. Left my phone behind, and everything.