Well I'm back at home after a long stay in a psych facility. I tried to ctb in there by swallowing a plastic wrapper that I guess wasn't big enough.
I hate how easy they make this stuff look on TV. I just watched a Stephen King movie where one of the guys who died did it by swallowing half a bar of soap while in a rehab facility.
When I tried it made alot of noise and I jerked around alot. When it failed I told the doc what I did because I was concerned about the plastic I swallowed.
I've really been thinking about trying wrist slashing again, but everywhere I read says it takes forever and it's unreliable. When I tried it my dumb ass got help after I cut real deep and was bleeding alot. It was taking to long so I went downstairs and my family called an ambulance.
Life is just no good. I'm stuck in poverty unable to work because of mental problems and my physical problems as well...
My parents took away my knives. The one I used cut real deep. I make try to secretly order another and hide it.
I just want to be gone. I turn 40 in December and thinking of having to live another 40 years or more sounds awful.
I wish I lived on my own so I could just down my psych meds, or maybe do SN, but I can only get over the counter anti emmetics.
It's all such a pain. I had thyroid cancer... I shoulda just left that alone, but family pressured me to get surgery. I may take up smoking again hoping that gives me cancer.
I hate how easy they make this stuff look on TV. I just watched a Stephen King movie where one of the guys who died did it by swallowing half a bar of soap while in a rehab facility.
When I tried it made alot of noise and I jerked around alot. When it failed I told the doc what I did because I was concerned about the plastic I swallowed.
I've really been thinking about trying wrist slashing again, but everywhere I read says it takes forever and it's unreliable. When I tried it my dumb ass got help after I cut real deep and was bleeding alot. It was taking to long so I went downstairs and my family called an ambulance.
Life is just no good. I'm stuck in poverty unable to work because of mental problems and my physical problems as well...
My parents took away my knives. The one I used cut real deep. I make try to secretly order another and hide it.
I just want to be gone. I turn 40 in December and thinking of having to live another 40 years or more sounds awful.
I wish I lived on my own so I could just down my psych meds, or maybe do SN, but I can only get over the counter anti emmetics.
It's all such a pain. I had thyroid cancer... I shoulda just left that alone, but family pressured me to get surgery. I may take up smoking again hoping that gives me cancer.
Sorry you're still here 
