Venting Still here

[ferolia]

It has been several months since I logged in here.
I am struggling and I have tried hard to still keep on.
I am suffering from severe tinnitus and unfortunately hyperacusis. It's pure hell on earth.
My condition has worsened a lot the past couple of months. It has become a big monster now and it's still growing.
I am running out of strength. I don't suffer from mental illness but it's impossible to carry on with this condition.
It's hard to describe. It is one of the toughest conditions a man can endure and I still can't believe how I got here. Prior to that life was good. I want to CBT but and be free. Recently I lost my father and my grandmother. So I have tones of guilt towards my mother. She wouldn't endure another loss. Don't know how to manage this.

 

[Pookie]

Sorry to hear you’re suffering so much. Didn’t I see a post from you that Pegasos would assist you with voluntary assisted dying?

 

[ferolia]

Sorry to hear you’re suffering so much. Didn’t I see a post from you that Pegasos would assist you with voluntary assisted dying?

No that was not me. Although I am aware of PEGASUS. If only I had the money.

 

[Pookie]

Does/did anybody else in your family suffer from tinnitus and hyperacusis?

 

[ferolia]

Does/did anybody else in your family suffer from tinnitus and hyperacusis?

Thankfully no. I am the only one. And it has gone pretty bad since the initial onset.

 

[RepressedMind]

I'm sorry that you've been suffering so much, I hope that you find peace soon

 

[Gaybonez]

It has been several months since I logged in here.
I am struggling and I have tried hard to still keep on.
I am suffering from severe tinnitus and unfortunately hyperacusis. It's pure hell on earth.
My condition has worsened a lot the past couple of months. It has become a big monster now and it's still growing.
I am running out of strength. I don't suffer from mental illness but it's impossible to carry on with this condition.
It's hard to describe. It is one of the toughest conditions a man can endure and I still can't believe how I got here. Prior to that life was good. I want to CBT but and be free. Recently I lost my father and my grandmother. So I have tones of guilt towards my mother. She wouldn't endure another loss. Don't know how to manage this.

Are you looking for coping advice?

It has been several months since I logged in here.
I am struggling and I have tried hard to still keep on.
I am suffering from severe tinnitus and unfortunately hyperacusis. It's pure hell on earth.
My condition has worsened a lot the past couple of months. It has become a big monster now and it's still growing.
I am running out of strength. I don't suffer from mental illness but it's impossible to carry on with this condition.
It's hard to describe. It is one of the toughest conditions a man can endure and I still can't believe how I got here. Prior to that life was good. I want to CBT but and be free. Recently I lost my father and my grandmother. So I have tones of guilt towards my mother. She wouldn't endure another loss. Don't know how to manage this.

I have mild tinnitus from listening to loud music one time for too long. How did yours appear?

 

[ferolia]

Are you looking for coping advice?

Wouldn't say so. I am not new to this, however the level of the symptoms have increased to the extend of disability. My H is so bad that I struggle to carry a normal convo.

How did yours appear?

Ototoxicity
Btw @Gaybonez thank you for replying.
What's up with you?
Why are you here?

 

[Gaybonez]

I cannot imagine what you’re going through. I’m glad you came here to look for safe methods that are not that painful. Did it occur with drug abuse or just genetics? I still have it and my brain learned to shut it out. However, mine was environmental not genetic. I am here just to talk about suicide. I’m not suicidal or depressed in the slightest. I am sad occasionally, but overall well. I used to post when I was suicidal, but that was last year under another account.

 

[Buffy5120]

Wouldn't say so. I am not new to this, however the level of the symptoms have increased to the extend of disability. My H is so bad that I struggle to carry a normal convo.


Ototoxicity
Btw @Gaybonez thank you for replying.
What's up with you?
Why are you here?

My H & T are unbearable what are you based on these charts?

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