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shadowsandink

shadowsandink

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Dec 22, 2024
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My mind has not been kind to me.
Everything just feels like too much, too loud, too heavy, and too constant. It takes everything just to still be here.

Maybe yours does too. I don't know what you're carrying. I wouldn't assume.

But if you're here, reading this, even with everything, maybe some part of you was hoping to find something soft.
Neither solution nor a fix.
Just a quiet moment that doesn't ask anything from you.

If so, I'm glad you're here.

You're not alone in the heaviness.
And if all you did today was breathe, that's still something. You're worthwhile and you've done enough.

Whatever path you're on, I really hope that your path will become kinder than what you have gone through or are going through. 💖
 
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just a dream within a dream…
Aug 16, 2025
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So sweet
 
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Catch-22

Catch-22

But in the end it doesn't even matter...😢
Aug 19, 2019
297
My mind has not been kind to me.
Everything just feels like too much, too loud, too heavy, and too constant. It takes everything just to still be here.

Maybe yours does too. I don't know what you're carrying. I wouldn't assume.

But if you're here, reading this, even with everything, maybe some part of you was hoping to find something soft.
Neither solution nor a fix.
Just a quiet moment that doesn't ask anything from you.

If so, I'm glad you're here.

You're not alone in the heaviness.
And if all you did today was breathe, that's still something. You're worthwhile and you've done enough.

Whatever path you're on, I really hope that your path will become kinder than what you have gone through or are going through. 💖
Thank you for the beautiful words ❤️
 
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countingclocks

countingclocks

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Feb 21, 2023
16
This is a really nice post to put out there. It's comforting on my end, others' too it seems. I hope there's some aspect of relief in knowing that what you're going through resonates with us too. It's maddening having to go through it all silently. I hope your night is going as peacefully as it can 💚
 
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MyShadow

MyShadow

Left the forum to pursue recovery
Aug 27, 2025
475
Like you, I am still here. I woke up this morning after a fitful night of sleep. Sleep is my only escape.

Although I wake up in an empty bed I am not truly alone. Before the sun rises, before I open my eyes, that large and overwhelming presence slips back in and reminds me that it's never going away. It will get worse as I face yet another day of pain and hopelessness.

I carry it with me until I can fall asleep again.


Thank you for your kind words.
 
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INYGTRMTFMO

INYGTRMTFMO

I Need Your Grace To Remind Me To Find My Own
May 1, 2025
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My mind has not been kind to me.
Everything just feels like too much, too loud, too heavy, and too constant. It takes everything just to still be here.

Maybe yours does too. I don't know what you're carrying. I wouldn't assume.

But if you're here, reading this, even with everything, maybe some part of you was hoping to find something soft.
Neither solution nor a fix.
Just a quiet moment that doesn't ask anything from you.

If so, I'm glad you're here.

You're not alone in the heaviness.
And if all you did today was breathe, that's still something. You're worthwhile and you've done enough.

Whatever path you're on, I really hope that your path will become kinder than what you have gone through or are going through. 💖
Thank you for these kind words. Right back at you. 💖
 
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