Neogoloid
Crush me until there’s nothing left
- Oct 28, 2023
- 200
Mountain where I can fall 250 - 300 ft down, I have a spot picked where I'll land clean on some rocks. I hope like hell this works. I'm gonna be heading out after thanksgiving to try it out, can't be confident if I'll have the courage or not but we'll see. Easy to say you'll jump till you actually get up there.
I'm hoping it feels like in those dreams where you're falling and you don't really feel anything and then you land and then it's over. I know that's not what it'll be like though.
But I've truly thought this through. Jumping is the smartest way I have in my arsenal to go about this. It'll be quick and painless. I've tired really hard with partial hanging. But I just can't be 100% confident that I will die once I pass out. And suspended hanging is painful.
I've actually been trying to jump for 2 years now, so many times I hiked up that mountain. And constantly just searching up the elevation and what not, and looking at stories of people falling from mountains. Just trying to be confident that I don't survive.
I'm hoping maybe now that I've suffered some more that maybe I'll have the balls to finally do it. I know I definitely won't be conscious when I hit the ground. Hopefully if I do survive, I succumb to my injuries before I can be saved.
I'm hoping it feels like in those dreams where you're falling and you don't really feel anything and then you land and then it's over. I know that's not what it'll be like though.
But I've truly thought this through. Jumping is the smartest way I have in my arsenal to go about this. It'll be quick and painless. I've tired really hard with partial hanging. But I just can't be 100% confident that I will die once I pass out. And suspended hanging is painful.
I've actually been trying to jump for 2 years now, so many times I hiked up that mountain. And constantly just searching up the elevation and what not, and looking at stories of people falling from mountains. Just trying to be confident that I don't survive.
I'm hoping maybe now that I've suffered some more that maybe I'll have the balls to finally do it. I know I definitely won't be conscious when I hit the ground. Hopefully if I do survive, I succumb to my injuries before I can be saved.