stabbing myself

[jennc]

is ctb by cutting your carotid artery something that i should not attempt?
i cant help but think about this. i want people who find me to know that i was in so much agony that i, who always puts a smile on my face in front of everyone
was suffering so much that i decided to stab myself to death.
i want my action to speak rather than a suicide note which i don't think i can ever explain satisfactorily why i decided to do this.
i failed an exam which was the last straw as it was my only chance of escaping this life and staying away from my toxic family
so thats what people are gonna think 'she died cause she failed an exam' when there is soo much more to why i lost the desire to live anymore.
i think stabbing myself to death sends a message, as somebody who decided to die from failing an exam i think wont go for this insane way to die.
is it bad that i dont want my family to have peace cause they caused me so much suffering?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

is ctb by cutting your carotid artery something that i should not attempt?

Can you cut your throat the same way like a butcher slaughters an animal?

If your answer is no - then it's not a method.

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i failed an exam which was the last straw as it was my only chance of escaping this life and staying away from my toxic family

A toxic family sucks but a failed exam isn't a death sentence.

 

[foggyskies_]

It is very low likelihood of working. Bleeding out is an extremely unreliable method and you're more likely to fail and permanently disable yourself or become a vegetable. I can relate to wanting a painful death, and getting back at a family and world that tortured you, but I don't think this way will suit your needs. Wanting to express the amount of pain you're in through the gruesomeness of your death is something I think about too. But the sad reality is stabbing is so unreliable that unless you are able to magically suppress your survival instinct to an inhuman degree, there's no guarantee you'll actually die this way. Other methods might suit you better.

Best wishes, I hope you find peace somehow regardless of what you choose.

 

[kagebunshin]

I stabbed myself last year in an attempt to ctb, you can read the post I made about it here. If you do decide to go this route, I hope you can learn something from my experience. It isn't a great method to ctb as, from my own experience, the body doesn't die easy; however, if you studied anatomy enough and went about it carefully, it may be fatal. Best of luck to you.

 

[darksouls]

my family is so cold-hearted
they would not care

 

[getoutgirl]

Like they said already that method is not great. I understand your desire to express all that pain to the people that caused it, still I don't it is worth it this way.
I'm so sorry you have a toxic family, and although it sucks that you failed an exam that could've gotten you out of there sooner, i don't think it will be your only chance to do so. If you want to you will get out as I'm sure you deserve a lot more than what you are getting and the pain you are going through. I also get how it is not just the exam and like you say it is a multitude of reasons, but in the end you shouldn't act as a way to justify your pain to others, specially to the ones that caused it and aren't and probably never will be aware of its extent, despite all you do to show them. It is fruitless, not worth it, even if the desire to show them is strong and ver real, I won't make light of that. But if you can, try to realise you only have justify your pain to yourself and move on from there, hard to ask specially if this just happened to you. Whatever you end up doing I hope the feelings get easier these days. Lots of hugs <3