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Nicothe13th

Student
Jan 6, 2021
188
Lol, Down I'm a bit of a Narc, I can't lie.

But I blame testosterone and human nature of wanting to be the best we can be.

Again, the amount of narcs in reality is astounding, you'd struggle to find many people who aren't on the spectrum unless you're in a monastery of some kind.
 
deerme

deerme

Member
Feb 8, 2021
22
Guidance from sources without their own twisted motives too! Honest, open caring and non selfish guidance.

I just hate the world man, it's toxic asf.

Just isn't right, I wanted to make a positive change, but I don't feel capable, so now what I just watch it fall into turmoil around me?

Meh.
i think more people need to focus on the small things. You can't change the world, but you can change friends and family. Even your community if you really try hard enough. The hard part os trying.
 
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D0wn4nd0ut

Member
Feb 11, 2021
43
Lol, Down I'm a bit of a Narc, I can't lie.

But I blame testosterone and human nature of wanting to be the best we can be.

Again, the amount of narcs in reality is astounding, you'd struggle to find many people who aren't on the spectrum unless you're in a monastery of some kind.
I feel like I fall into narcissist behaviors but I have empathy, and the ones that don't are the psychopaths
 
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D0wn4nd0ut

Member
Feb 11, 2021
43
i think more people need to focus on the small things. You can't change the world, but you can change friends and family. Even your community if you really try hard enough. The hard part os trying.
It's hard in a small town where everybody and I mean everybody is the narc.. family, whole community, cops, coworkers, and people you thought were your friends.. where do you start from there?
 
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Nicothe13th

Student
Jan 6, 2021
188
The problem is, the ones who could change the world, the gifted billionaires are to self absorbed to make changes and help.

I'm a narc, I'd want to check I looked good doing whatever but man, I'd help people if I had that capability.

Maybe Elon is an exception as it could be argued he's saving the human race from exstintion when our planet becomes inhabitable.
 
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D0wn4nd0ut

Member
Feb 11, 2021
43
The problem is, the ones who could change the world, the gifted billionaires are to self absorbed to make changes and help.

I'm a narc, I'd want to check I looked good doing whatever but man, I'd help people if I had that capability.

Maybe Elon is an exception as it could be argued he's saving the human race from exstintion when our planet becomes inhabitable.
Just from what you wrote, you just showed empathy, you're not a bad person, everybody would love to look good doing anything, we all want to look in the mirror and love the person we are, that doesn't make a person bad, it's when they are only out to ruin every soul they cross paths with, those are horrible people
 
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deerme

deerme

Member
Feb 8, 2021
22
It's hard in a small town where everybody and I mean everybody is the narc.. family, whole community, cops, coworkers, and people you thought were your friends.. where do you start from there?
i think. especially from experience when you're like this. there are people half decent you know. You just dont want to know who they are.
in the case there really is no one worth changing or doesn't want to change. take your first chance to leave it. I left my hometown as soon as i became 18. Now im somewhere different and im trying. i think trying is a lot more important then people realize. Everyone here wants to try and live. Some just dont know how. And old friends and family might be a weight you have to sever to be able to keep trying.
Im kind of rambling but hope you know what im trying to say
 
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Nicothe13th

Student
Jan 6, 2021
188
Just from what you wrote, you just showed empathy, you're not a bad person, everybody would love to look good doing anything, we all want to look in the mirror and love the person we are, that doesn't make a person bad, it's when they are only out to ruin every soul they cross paths with, those are horrible people

Yeah fortunately I don't know many like that, that teacher's one. But I haven't come across anyone with even close that to that amount of negative energy my whole life.

If you knew this guy, it's worrying too, he genuinely thinks he's the good guy helping people when he's abusing his intellect to abuse students.
Exactly, some narcs are even just scared kids in their minds, but some of the shit they do is wayyyy over the top..

I've always heard everyone has a little narcissism inside of em, but the ones that are full blown are considered psychos in my b

Exactly, some narcs are even just scared kids in their minds, but some of the shit they do is wayyyy over the top..

I've always heard everyone has a little narcissism inside of em, but the ones that are full blown are considered psychos in my book

What's way over the top?
 
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D0wn4nd0ut

Member
Feb 11, 2021
43
Yeah fortunately I don't know many like that, that teacher's one. But I haven't come across anyone with even close that to that amount of negative energy my whole life.

If you knew this guy, it's worrying too, he genuinely thinks he's the good guy helping people when he's abusing his intellect to abuse students.




What's way over the top?
Like when a narc don't get their way, so they turn a whole small town community against you along with your old friends and every family member, and coworkers and are keeping your child from you, about to make you pay months of child support back pay on top of contacting people via social media towns and cities away to tell them not to deal with you..

That's my world right now, I've had people confront me to fight me because they told them I was sleeping with their spouse when I clearly wasn't, people from my childhood want to fight me because they heard I've said things about them, the cops are harassing me now, I've overheard I may lose my job I've had for years and years because the Narc lied and said I was talking bad about everybody there..

That's what I meant by tooo far..

Now everyone knows why I need to ctb.. they won't expect that.. and if I go brain dead then who's gonna take care of me now that everyone turned on me? They'll let me die.. they're all narcs and in on it from what I can tell or at least most of them are narcs playing off each other and their flying monkeys.. They're all trying to ruin me little by little everyday..

I have nobody now, I need a miracle to save my situation honestly
 
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Nicothe13th

Student
Jan 6, 2021
188
That's a psychopath not a narc, that sounds exactly like that twisted teacher.

Kieren Reynolds is his name BTW, site www.kierenreynolds.com - cos my suicide wasn't that, he drove me to kill myself with those exact actions.
 
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D0wn4nd0ut

Member
Feb 11, 2021
43
I knew I was dealing with psychopaths, this whole town is filled with em from what I can see everyday, now when I ctb, they won't even miss me or care.. my kid will be hurt but they more than likely turned the kid on me too, and are just gonna say, he was sick, or he wasn't in the right mind state.. of course, after how this whole town has been treating me.. I've always had a big heart, and they all used that to gaslight me and torment me.. I'm done with it..
 
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Deformationalplagio

Born deformed
Dec 28, 2019
376
I'm sorry, I really am, but I feel anything can happen in this life, if celebrities can spend ungodly amounts of money to make anything happen for themselves.. why can't people like us get that treatment.. someone needs to help us out and like Nico said everyone is watching their own backs.. it shouldn't be like this for real..
its imposible to fix cranial asymmetry ears cant be moved eyes and nose cant be moved and never will be because its certain death. its not a light deformity i have its like a big nightmareish one i have. even having billions would not be able to fix it
 
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Nicothe13th

Student
Jan 6, 2021
188
Why would we guess? We aren't psychiatrists. It's like me asking you what my diagnosis is... have a guess.

its imposible to fix cranial asymmetry ears cant be moved eyes and nose cant be moved and never will be because its certain death. its not a light deformity i have its like a big nightmareish one i have. even having billions would not be able to fix it

If it's any concellation, you're probably way more confident than I am.

And my face pretty fucked up from fighting and too many drugs when was younger too.

I'd never judge you if I met you, I'm not that way, I speak to anyone and everyone and make judgements on personality not looks.
 
Marchioness

Marchioness

Eternal sleep
Feb 17, 2020
296
It's a sweet idea.
I don't see anyone shelling out $120k on the rest of my private student loans after I've spent years on knocking $30k off the monster.
 
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-Toplox-

Member
Nov 25, 2018
43
This would be amazing, I've literally lost 99% of my will to live, just sick of being nothing and worth nothing in this world.

I don't mean it in a material sense, just my being is empty, I don't have any purpose, or passions and bullying has fuckint ruined my social capabilities which was probably my best asset once upon a time.

But yeah, I'm all for it this would be sick.

I know its a step further, but imagine if we could afford to buy a plot of land build our own community free of the bullshit and toxicity of society, and have help and support in place, live off the land, psychedelic parties and shit.

I'll run for mayor if it ever goes aheadtha
 
Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,539
Kinda like the movie fightclub in a way, they were misfits, outcasts, losers, but they came together and had a damn army by the end of that movie

I like the reference, but Fight Club is not supposed to be a story to take inspiration from completely, it is more of a cautionary tale - which is what the author of the novel intended I think. Having said that it does make some good criticisms of society such as consumerism and conformity, and those are definitely some of the positive aspects of the story which everyone could take a note from. Anyhow...

The army that they had near the end of the movie/book went against what the protagonist originally wanted. Fight Club was founded with the idea of rebelling against society and its expectations; a group of disenfranchised young men who wanted to shake up the collective - there was an element of individualism. The problem, though, is that by the time Fight Club had grew into Project Mayhem, which was the next phase, those men started to become more and more sheepish. All of them had shaved heads, all of them wore the same clothing, and they all referred to Tyler Durden as "sir". Yes they became an army, but being an army dehumanized them, and they no longer had a sense of individuality. This was what Fight Club was supposed to destroy. The more they rebelled against the norms of society the more they turned to conformity. It is a case of: "I am different just like everyone else."

Apologies if this is derailing the topic.
 
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GenesAndEnvironment

Autistic loser
Jan 26, 2021
5,743
Best we can do is befriend users and be online buddies, I think. You might be able to create a region specific meetup once per year or something. If you want to do more it's riskier in several ways, but if people are genuinely suicidal I guess doxxing or possible law enforcement harassment wouldn't be a big deterrent.
 
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Nicothe13th

Student
Jan 6, 2021
188
I like the reference, but Fight Club is not supposed to be a story to take inspiration from completely, it is more of a cautionary tale - which is what the author of the novel intended I think. Having said that it does make some good criticisms of society such as consumerism and conformity, and those are definitely some of the positive aspects of the story which everyone could take a note from. Anyhow...

The army that they had near the end of the movie/book went against what the protagonist originally wanted. Fight Club was founded with the idea of rebelling against society and its expectations; a group of disenfranchised young men who wanted to shake up the collective - there was an element of individualism. The problem, though, is that by the time Fight Club had grew into Project Mayhem, which was the next phase, those men started to become more and more sheepish. All of them had shaved heads, all of them wore the same clothing, and they all referred to Tyler Durden as "sir". Yes they became an army, but being an army dehumanized them, and they no longer had a sense of individuality. This was what Fight Club was supposed to destroy. The more they rebelled against the norms of society the more they turned to conformity. It is a case of: "I am different just like everyone else."

Apologies if this is derailing the topic.
Never seen it but sounds like a decent film
 
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saltshaker

saltshaker

salt shaker, rule breaker
Jan 29, 2021
402
The people here can help me by chopping my head off.

ba dum tiss!
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,165
Great idea, in theory - but practically, it could open a whole can of worms and put our vulnerable members in danger of predators.

I think the very same.
I do my best to help people with some advice on threads or pm and also receive some but there are many scammers and predators around.
There was this guy who literally told me "Hey WornOutLife, you're my fav user. You know, I gotta tell you something. I owe a lot of money. Could you lend me 10.000 usd? I'll give them back to you in 2 months" lol

Fortunately, he ended up banned.
 
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UterEntonaur

Specialist
Aug 17, 2020
340
Great idea, in theory - but practically, it could open a whole can of worms and put our vulnerable members in danger of predators.
Exactly... kinda like those "male seeking female" partner threads :nomouth:

You might be able to create a region specific meetup once per year or something.
I don't know how that would work, but to be honest, I doubt I'd ever meet anyone from here (unless there was a very good reason, like they were willing to share their SN, and trust had been built over a long-ish time)
 
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