Growing up, I often clashed with my older brother. Not always, we did have some good times together. But we clashed a lot.
Eventually, I decided to cut him out of my life. It seemed the right thing to do.
I have come to realize on this site, with the help of others, is just how different I am. So many here have things like autism or Asperger's, and have talked about how it has affected their lives
So for a while now, I realized that was me too. But only now do I realize it was also my brother. He was different too, and he was struggling. I didn't know. I certainly didn't know it was both of us.
A few years ago he took his life. We hadn't talked in years. I now know exactly what he was going through. His mindset. His decision.
I wish I could say I'm sorry. If I knew it was both of us we could've tried to help each other out. Instead, I pushed him away. And I was blind to the fact that so many people were doing the same to me.
This is all a vent I suppose. Even if he were alive, I don't know what good it would do us now. It's sad. Just tragic.
Eventually, I decided to cut him out of my life. It seemed the right thing to do.
I have come to realize on this site, with the help of others, is just how different I am. So many here have things like autism or Asperger's, and have talked about how it has affected their lives
So for a while now, I realized that was me too. But only now do I realize it was also my brother. He was different too, and he was struggling. I didn't know. I certainly didn't know it was both of us.
A few years ago he took his life. We hadn't talked in years. I now know exactly what he was going through. His mindset. His decision.
I wish I could say I'm sorry. If I knew it was both of us we could've tried to help each other out. Instead, I pushed him away. And I was blind to the fact that so many people were doing the same to me.
This is all a vent I suppose. Even if he were alive, I don't know what good it would do us now. It's sad. Just tragic.
