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skylight7

Member
Aug 16, 2024
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I can play beautiful music. I can write touching poetry. But what I cannot do is bring peace to my suffering. All the talents in the world, all the art one can create cannot save them from their pain. But maybe death can.

This part of your comment is amazing poetry. "All the talents in the world, all the art one can create cannot save them from their pain. But death can."
 
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PrisonPlanet

Member
Jun 14, 2023
25
Having talents doesn't fix the loneliness that comes from wanting to be in a relationship but not being able to make a single one work, or a family that doesn't love you.
 
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dontwakemeup

dontwakemeup

Arcanist
Nov 11, 2024
484
I think post and views like this are how the world view suicide. I don't have to convince you the reason that I want to ctb as you don't have to convince me the reason why you want to continue existing in this world! I guarantee you, neither of us will agree with each other!

A lot of talented people have chosen to stop existing. What I hope you learn from this thread is everyone's personal reason is valid enough for them as yours is valid for you. There is no comparison, people often try to equate the two but the formula is different, but it will always equal the same amount, the same worth, the same value in the end.
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see..."
Mar 23, 2023
1,231
Talented? Elvis Presley, Marilyn Monroe,Errol Flynn,George Reeves,Edward Platt(the chief on Maxwell Smart), Charles Boyer(mitigating circumstances, his wife died just two days earlier), or rather, check suicide rates by profession(Vets, Dentists,Doctors) having a talent means little to many people
Don't know much about others, but Marilyn overdosed and Elvis died of heart failure (perhaps because of drugs also..?).
 
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nolosis

nolosis

blu4rrrr
Sep 23, 2023
18
I have an average IQ and no talents at all. The lack of ability that I have makes me want to kill myself, and it's the reason I'm ctbing. I know if I could just sit in my room and draw all day, I would choose to live. If I was talented at mathematics I'd choose to pursue it. Yet, I get that this is not how everyone else feels, and I'm wondering why? Why isn't their talent enough to stop them from ctbing? It's amazing to have something you're good at and you can do easily for the rest of your life. I feel empty and like there is nothing I can do with my life.

I don't mean to be insensitive at all, I'm just suffering with the pain of wanting what others have and not having anything in my life.
being talented at something puts a lot of pressure and even more stress on you in my experiences, I remember being less depressed actually before I went pro in boxing, ever since I've been pro my depression has increased dramatically, my talent is what I am and I'm nothing without it, it creates a disconnect from everything in my life and that makes everything worse, everything feels fake and not real.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,670
Don't know much about others, but Marilyn overdosed and Elvis died of heart failure (perhaps because of drugs also..?).
Marilyn committed suicide, and Elvis committed suicide the slow way, he was the worst prescription drug addict of all time
 
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WhatPowerIs

WhatPowerIs

Paragon
Jun 19, 2022
989
I have an average IQ and no talents at all. The lack of ability that I have makes me want to kill myself, and it's the reason I'm ctbing. I know if I could just sit in my room and draw all day, I would choose to live. If I was talented at mathematics I'd choose to pursue it. Yet, I get that this is not how everyone else feels, and I'm wondering why? Why isn't their talent enough to stop them from ctbing? It's amazing to have something you're good at and you can do easily for the rest of your life. I feel empty and like there is nothing I can do with my life.

I don't mean to be insensitive at all, I'm just suffering with the pain of wanting what others have and not having anything in my life.
I feel the same way. I'm really not good at anything so I'm not sure why I should continue to live.
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,366
Someone may have said this already, I haven't read the replies but talent and ability doesn't matter in the grand scheme as mental illness doesn't discriminate. Depression doesn't care how talented you are at anything. It will still affect you just as much as it would the untalented person.
 
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SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,034
Because talent alone just isn't enough.
 
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ForgottenAgain

ForgottenAgain

On the rollercoaster of sadness
Oct 17, 2023
1,040
Because talent brings about pressure, from others and yourself, and then in turns makes the thing you used to love doing feel like a chore.

Take art for instance. It was my passion since I was a kid, I would draw every day many times a day. I just enjoyed the feeling of pencil on paper, of trying to make a pretty face or a nice flower. It was pleasurable, care free and helped to ease stress.

Fast forward some time and I became quite good at it, simply because I drew a lot. So people started putting expectations on me. In art class I always had to be the best otherwise people would tell me I was getting behind. Then, as you become good at something, you start to realize how much more there is still to learn. How there are so many others far better than you and how, even though you can imagine something, you can't translate it from your imagination to paper as well as you wanted to.

Time passes and you do your hobby much less because it now brings you stress. You don't enjoy the process anymore, you get frustrated, you're afraid of disappointing others and yourself, you become highly critical of every tiny mistake because that's what art school does to you. And then suddenly you realise: reality killed your passion and you're left mending the corpse.

Then, as you become sad with life's struggles and with your craft, you start to make sad paintings that no one likes. You hear your own father say that what you create is horrible and no one wants to see it. This only exacerbates your sadness and anger so sadder your paintings become. You look at what you create and weep for yourself, the tortured soul that created that. You remember the days of drawn smilling faces, nature, animals whilst you're looking at a painting of yourself hanging, lifeless, with nothing else for the world to take.

Being talented is a double edged sword and even though I consider myself talented, I still feel purposeless. I don't see a reason to wake up the next day. Sure, I may be reasonably good at paiting, and...? No one likes what I create and I can barely create anymore. Years of my life, the word "artist" was a synonym to my identity but yet I'm an artist who rarely creates and struggles horribly to finish a painting. What good am I to the world? What value do I have, even for myself? Living surrounded by sad paintings, no friends, no mother, no sister, lonely every day.
 
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phantomime

phantomime

Student
Feb 9, 2023
119
i can draw, write and do translation work good enoug that it kept me alive, but barely- i struggle a lot to make money selling my "talents" and i do at a very low price in hopes of selling more. i've been surviving but in the end talent doesn't put enough money on the table... and well. i can draw but i'm still disabled and chronically ill. me being able to draw doesn't heal me or solve any of my REAL problems.
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
90
Depression can happen to anyone, regardless of their status.
 
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sximii

meow
Dec 4, 2024
110
I'm that autistic gifted kid with lots of talents. To be honest, I don't have a clear answer for that question. Some studies have shown that mental illness and high iq correlate, but I honestly don't know. Being talented doesn't always equal being happy and having a great life.
 

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