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Eternal Disaster

Eternal Disaster

IHaveDemonsInMyHead
Aug 3, 2025
113
Today I posted on reddit for the first time. Well, when I read the comments I realised that we as pro-choice people can understand and accept that some people have good meaningful life and a healthy brain and we respect their choice to live. But why pro-lifers cannot accept that sometimes some people truly suffer and their life is beyond repair or recovery so they choose suicide. I am not talking about those who CTB impulsively I am talking about people like me and they do exist.

A commentator said "You can't decide to end your life". Great, I was born without my consent. Ok I don't want to start my antinatalist rant here . But I cannot even decide about my death. Leave death, I cannot even decide in which country I live. Like what is the point of being born in a country like this. I cannot even study what I want. I have a cursed brain I cannot even choose my brain. My brain is just like a piece of shit. I can't have the job I want. I cannot choose my gender. I cannot even decide whether I want all that trauma and abuse in my life or not . I cannot choose the family I am born into. Everyone in this family is dead. And those who are alive are killing me from inside. I cannot even move out from this abusive household all thanks to this fu*king society and culture.

I am not against life or what we are born with. I just face terrible things in my life and what I have even makes things worse. I am not grateful for 'my' life. I don't want to live then why that fucking suicide prevention is always around like a fu*king hero. It is a well thought decision in a good state of mind. I cannot live like normal people because I suffer and there are many sufferings I just can't pick up the list and explain it to everyone.

Why am I supposed to respect others when they abuse me. Why am I supposed to live like others when I am not like others why don't they accept it . I am going insane. I cannot even CTB.Why they expect me to live ? And that too according to them .


I cannot live the life world expects me to live. They won't let me live the life I want. They won't even let me die , because dead bodies don't pay taxes.
All I am asking for is just a peaceful death. Is it too much?

At the end I don't want to disrespect anyone's opinion or thoughts and I am not telling others to become or act like me . It's just a vent.
 
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Rockman

Rockman

Experienced
Feb 9, 2020
237
As long as you ask for permission you will remain at someone's mercy. Just don't ask. Do what you want with your life.
 
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TBONTB

Enlightened
May 31, 2025
1,114
Today I posted on reddit for the first time. Well, when I read the comments I realised that we as pro-choice people can understand and accept that some people have good meaningful life and a healthy brain and we respect their choice to live. But why pro-lifers cannot accept that sometimes some people truly suffer and their life is beyond repair or recovery so they choose suicide. I am not talking about those who CTB impulsively I am talking about people like me and they do exist.

A commentator said "You can't decide to end your life". Great, I was born without my consent. Ok I don't want to start my antinatalist rant here . But I cannot even decide about my death. Leave death, I cannot even decide in which country I live. Like what is the point of being born in a country like this. I cannot even study what I want. I have a cursed brain I cannot even choose my brain. My brain is just like a piece of shit. I can't have the job I want. I cannot choose my gender. I cannot even decide whether I want all that trauma and abuse in my life or not . I cannot choose the family I am born into. Everyone in this family is dead. And those who are alive are killing me from inside. I cannot even move out from this abusive household all thanks to this fu*king society and culture.

I am not against life or what we are born with. I just face terrible things in my life and what I have even makes things worse. I am not grateful for 'my' life. I don't want to live then why that fucking suicide prevention is always around like a fu*king hero. It is a well thought decision in a good state of mind. I cannot live like normal people because I suffer and there are many sufferings I just can't pick up the list and explain it to everyone.

Why am I supposed to respect others when they abuse me. Why am I supposed to live like others when I am not like others why don't they accept it . I am going insane. I cannot even CTB.Why they expect me to live ? And that too according to them .


I cannot live the life world expects me to live. They won't let me live the life I want. They won't even let me die , because dead bodies don't pay taxes.
All I am asking for is just a peaceful death. Is it too much?

At the end I don't want to disrespect anyone's opinion or thoughts and I am not telling others to become or act like me . It's just a vent.
There's so much anger and frustration here, I am sorry for that and what brought you here. That a lot to worry about, a lot to feel about.


You don't have to waste your time on other people's point of view. You can skip that.
 
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Warriorsfan

Member
Jun 15, 2023
180
This frigging life now.
I hate it!
And I try not to hate anyone.
Wish there was easy ctb.
But there isn't anymore.
To me they are all very very difficult.
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
554
Sorry you're struggling. I agree with what you said. Unfortunately, I don't think the public will ever understand what we go through.
 
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