Venting Why does it getting better sound terrible still....

[cookiencream]

Maybe it's weird, but every time I hear those stories along the lines of "I used to be depressed and now I'm married with a kid and a dream job!!!" I shudder a bit. Idk why but none of that sounds appealing? Working, getting married, having a kid. None of that sounds appealing at all. And all the struggling you have to do to even get to that. It feels like I dislike life itself. I think it's because I know the fundamental problems I have with life will nevet go away but these things would make me wanna put up with it. But these things are somewhat temporary (you wont have the same job forever, marriages end one way or another, both painfully, and I don't want kids so that in of itself would be horrific for me) The exchange just doesn't feel equal to me, so it doesn't really motivate me it just discourages me. Is there something wrong with me? I feel like I'm just not compatible with being alive

 

[_Gollum_]

Nothing wrong with you. Not everyone has an innate will to live. Some people's problem is existence itself, not the conditions thereof.

 

[............]

Because family, a good job, a good place to live, just happen to be the average ideal.

Just because that's the truest wish and ideal happy life for one person, it doesn't mean that that has to be what makes another person happy. You pick what ideal life you want to work towards if you chose to get better .

The choice is yours, but may you find peace, either way you end up going.