Discussion Some reasons to want to ctb

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I'm thinking of how cooked we are. AI is taking over everything, art, coding, writing...

We are each day forced to do and learn things we don't like. I know this was always this way, but it's getting worse.

I suffer from anxiety and on top of that, I get super hopeless about my future plans. Almost feels like I won't reach them, and if I do, I won't be strong enough to face them in order to keep the rythm of that new life.

Every day I feel more insecure and physically fatigued. But yeah I'm just venting right now.

Going back, I can't believe just how real this feels to us. We live at most 80 or so years on average, out of millions of years this planet has existed. Why is it such a big deal? This could be an argument to live to the fullest, but also could be a point in favour of ctb, because it doesn't matter anyways, why suffer?

Just wanted to share this, and hopefully someone else sees how absurd living is. Eternal peace is the ultimate reward.

 

[ForeverCaHa]

I agree with what you've said here. Although my primary reason to CTB is the death of my partner, I am also pretty scared for my future. I work in a field which has been more or less wiped out by AI (translation), so work opportunities aren't going to be plentiful. I was considering a career in academia, but universities across the UK are closing language departments, including the uni I'm doing my PhD at, so that's not looking great.

It's certainly a minor thing for me, but it all adds up to make CTB more of a definite choice.

 

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My chronic pain

 

[CravingPeace]

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I agree with what you've said here. Although my primary reason to CTB is the death of my partner, I am also pretty scared for my future. I work in a field which has been more or less wiped out by AI (translation), so work opportunities aren't going to be plentiful. I was considering a career in academia, but universities across the UK are closing language departments, including the uni I'm doing my PhD at, so that's not looking great.

It's certainly a minor thing for me, but it all adds up to make CTB more of a definite choice.

I can see this happening to my job as well. Getting nutrition advice from an all-knowing computer would be much cheaper than hiring a dietitian.

 

[finnago]

I'm thinking of how cooked we are. AI is taking over everything, art, coding, writing...

We are each day forced to do and learn things we don't like. I know this was always this way, but it's getting worse.

I suffer from anxiety and on top of that, I get super hopeless about my future plans. Almost feels like I won't reach them, and if I do, I won't be strong enough to face them in order to keep the rythm of that new life.

Every day I feel more insecure and physically fatigued. But yeah I'm just venting right now.

Going back, I can't believe just how real this feels to us. We live at most 80 or so years on average, out of millions of years this planet has existed. Why is it such a big deal? This could be an argument to live to the fullest, but also could be a point in favour of ctb, because it doesn't matter anyways, why suffer?

Just wanted to share this, and hopefully someone else sees how absurd living is. Eternal peace is the ultimate reward.

I wish this were guaranteed. The only thing that's holding me back from ctb is the uncertainty of death. We don't know what'll happen and never will until it inevitably happens. I just hope whatever happens or doesn't happen after is better than this.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

but also could be a point in favour of ctb, because it doesn't matter anyways, why suffer?

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand and I'd personally always prefer to not exist no matter what, I just want peace as well, I'd prefer to not suffer than prolong the suffering all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age and die anyway especially as there are no disadvantages to not existing. If I'm gone then nothing can concern me and all is finally forgotten about which is all I hope and wish for, I just want to never exist ever again, I just want to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive, non-existence would solve everything for me and save me from all future suffering in this existence I always saw as completely futile and unnecessary that I never would had chosen.

 

[devils~advocate]

Many reasons for someone to end it all.....
I'd be the one to the take the Matrix blue pill and live in this world we have...if things in my life were to have gone well.
But they didn't.....

I guess it depends on what you as an individual, value in a life. Its the course of life or goals or milestones that make one "happy", that is important.

Ive seen some progress thru their lives having many battles and hardships....but not really letting any of it get them down & not ever to the point they think about ending it all.

Then Ive seen some like myself....that too many things have gone wrong or just didnt work out like they planned.....and ending it all is a final act of last resort.

For me, I spent time and effort getting an education. Did without a social life during that time....not having fun, feelings, experiences, etc. Thinking that those things would come later since I was sacrificing it all at the time....to get a career going.
Then thinking that meeting someone, getting married, having a familyetc etc....that it would lead to a more fulfilling life as well.

When after time those things fall apart or become disappointing...unfullfilling........you realize that you've wasted your time and/or you're a bad decision maker.
You can't jump into a time machine and change any of it...too much time has passed to fix things or change course.
I mean, how many times do you need to change jobs or marriages before you are happy.....you can try but it may never happen.

So here I am. Ive tried to play the game of having a normal life like everyone else.....getting an education, married, trying to have a family, etc....
It just is disappointing what I got back. It helps if one has privilege, money, status, nepotism, etc etc....but even then its no guarantee.