Venting Some days I don't even want to die

[eupdplishlp]

I just want to stop being here.

Not in a tragic way, in the tired bone deep kinda way where you've carried too much for too long and no one noticed.

And the truth is...If I disapear, it's not just my story ending, it's the story of a system that let somone like us slip through.

someone who showed up, who tried, who loved, who didn't ask for much.


I am not the exception. I am the rule no one wants to see. And when I go, it's not because I was weak. It's because the world I was born into made survival feel like a phnishment.

so if they ever talk about me after I ctb let them talk about that.




demand better for the next kid drowning in kindness no one valued and for ones who hide their scars under long sleeves and fake smiles.

for we are the ones who never wanted to die but wanted a reason to stay.

 

[Doll Steak]

nicely said.

 

[Satori Komeiji]

I don't think there are many people who genuinely want to die...It's just that they are left with no other option. I don't want to die but the world has left me with no better option. That's not to mention all the horrific things happening around the world at all times. Who would want to live in a world with such hate?

 

[FadeToBlack1109]

Your words genuinely made me tear up for a second. And I haven't cried at the thought of suicide in a long, long while

100% agree with everything you said.

 

[eupdplishlp]

Your words genuinely made me tear up for a second. And I haven't cried at the thought of suicide in a long, long while

100% agree with everything you said.

thank you, honestly

 

[FadeToBlack1109]

thank you, honestly

I think you just made me realize how thinking about and researching suicide 24/7 just makes us completely oblivious to the fact how tragic all of this is. Having accepted that the bus is the only way makes it feel like it's the most normal thing in the world, when in actuality, it's still such a damn shame how many people end up this way...

This isn't gonna change my decision to ctb soon, but it granted me some much-needed reflection. Thank you for that

 

[Sprite_Geist]

I just want to stop being here.

Not in a tragic way, in the tired bone deep kinda way where you've carried too much for too long and no one noticed.

You have not given up; you just know when enough is enough. Is this an accurate way to explain the way you feel?

I am not the exception. I am the rule no one wants to see. And when I go, it's not because I was weak. It's because the world I was born into made survival feel like a phnishment.

Agreed. Even the most adaptable of people can only change themselves so much to suit an environment that was never meant for them, or that did not want them. Those who would call you weak have not yet reached their limit.

 

[spoiledberry]

I don't think there are many people who genuinely want to die...It's just that they are left with no other option. I don't want to die but the world has left me with no better option. That's not to mention all the horrific things happening around the world at all times. Who would want to live in a world with such hate?

exactly. everything is so fucked up.

 

[whenwillthepainstop]

I don't think there are many people who genuinely want to die...It's just that they are left with no other option. I don't want to die but the world has left me with no better option. That's not to mention all the horrific things happening around the world at all times. Who would want to live in a world with such hate?

I agree, that's the most difficult part. I believe some people TRULY want death but a lot of us don't, just a way out of this suffering. If the world and life was different, I probably wouldn't want to die.

 

[Xiaojiu]

I agree, that's the most difficult part. I believe some people TRULY want death but a lot of us don't, just a way out of this suffering. If the world and life was different, I probably wouldn't want to die.

I feel the same way as you do. I don't honestly want death. I just don't want to live with this pain and suffering anymore. . . If my existence and body was different, if I didn't feel physical pain 24/7, I wouldn't want to die.