Venting so tired of spiraling over nothing

[comeoutandhauntme]

the littlest things will trigger me for no reason, out of nowhere. i haven't heard from my friend all day despite originally having plans tonight that would've happened in about an hour. and i know this friend, she's not the type to ignore, and the logical part of my brain is telling me she's just been busy or doing stuff with her family so she just hasn't had a chance to reply to me.

but immediately my brain starts assuming the worst and jumping to the worst conclusions. i did something to upset her, she's mad at me, she's distancing herself from me because she's not confrontational and that's what she does when she's upset with people (she's told me before). i'm panicking and my chest is tight and i'm teary eyed assuming the worst.

but thing is i KNOW i'm being irrational, but it's not enough to stop me from spiraling. like this is one of my best friends, i know her very well, i can't imagine her ever just randomly ghosting me or hating me or something without at least talking to me. but i still can't stop the "what ifs." what if she's mad but just is avoiding me completely? what if she's dropping me? what if what if what if?

i hate it. i just wish i could have a normal
brain, especially when it comes to how i fell about my close relationships

 

[apearl]

I get how you feel I do the same thing sometimes. It's really annoying to know cognitively that things are gonna be ok but like emotionally you just can't accept it. Try not to be too hard on yourself about it, it happens to the best of us. I find that a good thing I can do when I'm getting upset like that is try to make myself really busy with something else till the person responds because if I keep ruminating its just gonna get worse.

Love ur pfp btw its so cute. I hope you feel better soon

 

[comeoutandhauntme]

I get how you feel I do the same thing sometimes. It's really annoying to know cognitively that things are gonna be ok but like emotionally you just can't accept it. Try not to be too hard on yourself about it, it happens to the best of us. I find that a good thing I can do when I'm getting upset like that is try to make myself really busy with something else till the person responds because if I keep ruminating its just gonna get worse.

Love ur pfp btw its so cute. I hope you feel better soon

thank u yeah don't have much to do rn but just trying to distract myself by scrolling tiktok and may take a bunch of melatonin soon so i can just pass out and then hopefully have a response by the time i wake up