So scared of failing

[GreenTree]

I'm so scared of failing ctb. I don't want to end up in the prison that is a psych ward. I'd smash the place up. It's like being in jail. So I'm stuck in 2 minds try to ctb and hopefully succeed or fail and end up in psych ward. I been in 5 times. Couldn't hack it again. They charge your mobiles. Look at you like shit for bothering them. The shower is piss poor. 1 shower for 18 men. The bedrooms are like prison cells. No cigarettes. Arrogant staff. Although some are nice. I'm stuck in 2 minds. Try and ctb or risk failing and being sectioned to hell of a psych ward. Please help.

 

[FuneralCry]

Failing ctb sounds so horrible to me, it's exactly what I fear. I hate how we exist in this horrible world that punishes suicidal people by locking them up like that, this world where we cannot just leave in peace without risks and complications truly is hell to me, it's so inhumane how other people wish to make us prisoners to this existence until we die anyway.