prototypian
Student
- May 6, 2024
- 134
I have chronic suicidal ideation and depression and I know I'm messed up
I just can't believe how many things are in direct opposition to each other that the world just lives with
Example (my thoughts not the actual world view)
Modern advertising and consumer based economics pushes everyone to be a part of a herd. HR in corporate America along with finance wants every person and job to just be a cog and be completely replaceable. A principle goal seems to be to strip humanity away so that it's easier to sell more stuff easily and prevent having to pay employees but you do need to have some job to keep the system going.
But at the same time an entire industry is set up to prevent suicide and convert it into a negative connotation and convince everyone that life is truly special and somewhere out there we are deeply individuals who love and are loved and all tha other stuff isn't important. And these views diametrically oppose each other all the time
Then we have medicine in which something is broken like a bone or a heart valve or a disease and the world demands cures and the best outcomes and clear evidence
But in mental health we have an entire wholly defined industry where cognitive therapy expects us to define the problem and treatment modality ourselves while the therapist asks questions like "why do you think you are depressed" and patently refuses to suggest a course of action because "they are giving us the tools to help ourselves".
This one is so bizarre I can't believe it because by that logic I should be doing my own surgery and helping myself when an appendicitis flares up so that I have the tools to help myself.
Then an entire industry lauds wealthy people and focuses on exceptionalism and those bootstrap libertarian values of a rugged individual who did success out of sheer will
While the actual math is that the apex is such a gamble and so few failures out of billions are not discussed that we have a false religious narrative for whatever great really looks like.
And my own personal biggest problem is that in 500 years it won't matter. Even 100 years, just a generation and a half and no one willl remember anything you did. Statistically you're better off buying a lotttery ticket per day and considering that you hope you win twice in a row than you are at being someone whose contributions to the world will be remembers even 150 years into the future.
I just can't believe how many things are in direct opposition to each other that the world just lives with
Example (my thoughts not the actual world view)
Modern advertising and consumer based economics pushes everyone to be a part of a herd. HR in corporate America along with finance wants every person and job to just be a cog and be completely replaceable. A principle goal seems to be to strip humanity away so that it's easier to sell more stuff easily and prevent having to pay employees but you do need to have some job to keep the system going.
But at the same time an entire industry is set up to prevent suicide and convert it into a negative connotation and convince everyone that life is truly special and somewhere out there we are deeply individuals who love and are loved and all tha other stuff isn't important. And these views diametrically oppose each other all the time
Then we have medicine in which something is broken like a bone or a heart valve or a disease and the world demands cures and the best outcomes and clear evidence
But in mental health we have an entire wholly defined industry where cognitive therapy expects us to define the problem and treatment modality ourselves while the therapist asks questions like "why do you think you are depressed" and patently refuses to suggest a course of action because "they are giving us the tools to help ourselves".
This one is so bizarre I can't believe it because by that logic I should be doing my own surgery and helping myself when an appendicitis flares up so that I have the tools to help myself.
Then an entire industry lauds wealthy people and focuses on exceptionalism and those bootstrap libertarian values of a rugged individual who did success out of sheer will
While the actual math is that the apex is such a gamble and so few failures out of billions are not discussed that we have a false religious narrative for whatever great really looks like.
And my own personal biggest problem is that in 500 years it won't matter. Even 100 years, just a generation and a half and no one willl remember anything you did. Statistically you're better off buying a lotttery ticket per day and considering that you hope you win twice in a row than you are at being someone whose contributions to the world will be remembers even 150 years into the future.
