JaegerBombastic
Member
- Jul 11, 2025
- 20
I am so utterly and completely alone. For some reason, all my life I have felt this overwhelming sense of loneliness. I'm not kidding; even with doting loving parents, I've always had this black emptiness disconnecting me from everyone else. Now that I'm out in the real world on my own, it's become too much to bare. I have some online friends and a couple in person (though I live in a huge city so they're all far away), but nothing seems fulfilling. I often fantasize about being in a relationship because I've never been in one, as if that'll solve the issue. Thing is, it probably will make me feel less alone at least physically, but I'm not confident that I won't still have this emptiness inside me. And besides, no one would ever want to date me anyways.
Point is, it actually physically feels like I'm dying from loneliness. I'm told chronic loneliness is as dangerous to your health as smoking a whole pack of cigarettes every day, and I honestly think it's true. My body is slowing down and I just don't have the strength or energy that I used to. I've accepted that I'm probably not going to live a very long life, but I just want at least some meaning from it. I just want to feel real love. That's it, I just wanted to rant. Constant passive suicidal ideation is a bitch btw.
Point is, it actually physically feels like I'm dying from loneliness. I'm told chronic loneliness is as dangerous to your health as smoking a whole pack of cigarettes every day, and I honestly think it's true. My body is slowing down and I just don't have the strength or energy that I used to. I've accepted that I'm probably not going to live a very long life, but I just want at least some meaning from it. I just want to feel real love. That's it, I just wanted to rant. Constant passive suicidal ideation is a bitch btw.
