I wish someone would tell me not to do it

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It feels like I truly have nothing to hold onto anymore. I am tired of the constant misery and indifference and loneliness of the world, but I also don't feel any relief when I think about my death. It just fills me with unbearable sadness. I know there's no way to fix my life anymore, but I don't want it to end like this, I don't want to be alone. I don't want anyone to leave me without a word again, I don't want them to die without saying goodbye. I want someone to truly care about me and understand me, to tell me to stay. What kind of fucking world is this, where we have to endure all this regret and pain and grief on our own, and then it just ends and that's it? i don't know what to do

 

[ThisPartySucks]

im not going to tell you not to do it, because that isnt what this is.

i will, however, tell you, i will support whatever decision you make. it is your choice to make, not ours. if you want to get better, then lets find the path to get better. if you want to end it, then lets find the path to end it.

from what i can tell, there are plenty of resources to help assist with recovery here, and so so many options outside of even this website.

I know there's no way to fix my life anymore

there is always a way to fix your life. the path forward is not apparent to any of us; we just know it when we see it.