Discussion So insane how suicidal I am

[Polyxo]

I caught myself genuinely fantasizing about someone finding out about my depression and recognizing I need help and acknowledging how I really feel inside.

Like, man, I've really hit that point, huh? That's so sad LMFAO.

 

[theboy]

How does that make you feel?

 

[Vlad Tepes]

In my case I just fantasize about my parents being striken by guilt to the point of suicide after I end it all (which wont happen, because my parents are insane adult children incapable of feeling guilt). Ive long since given up on even fantasizing about anybody coming and actually helping me in this life. I am so far beyond any and all salvation.

 

[telekon]

In my case I just fantasize about my parents being striken by guilt to the point of suicide after I end it all (which wont happen, because my parents are insane adult children incapable of feeling guilt). Ive long since given up on even fantasizing about anybody coming and actually helping me in this life. I am so far beyond any and all salvation.

they're such insane adult children that i couldn't even begin to fantasize about something so outside the realm of possibility

 

[Polyxo]

How does that make you feel?

I feel like I'm caught in a fever dream. I've built up such a great mask that the only way people will find out about my feelings is when I'm dead.

In my case I just fantasize about my parents being striken by guilt to the point of suicide after I end it all (which wont happen, because my parents are insane adult children incapable of feeling guilt). Ive long since given up on even fantasizing about anybody coming and actually helping me in this life. I am so far beyond any and all salvation.

I'm sorry to hear about your relationship with your parents

 

[I Me & Myself]

I caught myself genuinely fantasizing about someone finding out about my depression and recognizing I need help and acknowledging how I really feel inside.

Like, man, I've really hit that point, huh? That's so sad LMFAO.

Relatable.

I often fantasize about this. I want someone capable of intervening to notice so badly. Which is mostly followed up by incredible guilt for doing that, because I am literally just doing it for attention (not meant in a derogatory way)

This is going to sound really bad. But I actually live out these fantasies in rp, specifically ai rp. I just don't want to bother anyone. There are people who know; but they can't help me either. And opening up is scary. I don't know if I recommend that. Feels weird & pathetic saying it out loud.

 

[aztexi]

Istg lmao, not only fantasizing about it, but i recreated the fantasy on ai rp. It's just shows how pathetic of a person i am lol.