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Butterfly65

Butterfly65

One step closer
Oct 28, 2020
157
I am not understanding why people feel SN is peaceful? It seems like it is anything but.
 
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SweetDreams500

SweetDreams500

Narcissistic gay NEETcel
Apr 4, 2021
234
It is somewhat peaceful. It is the best thing that is available to the general public.
 
LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,170
Where did you see it was anything but?
I suspect it's not as peaceful as the claim that is made, but I don't have any other options.
Now that new thread about having woken up after taking the SN has me more concerned about the efficacy versus any type of discomfort, I need my method to kill me, above all else, just need it to get the job done.
 
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Butterfly65

Butterfly65

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Oct 28, 2020
157
It just seems like people talk as if SN is peaceful like N or inert gas with hood. It doesn't seem that way to me. It seems painful and scary and it takes time.
 
LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,170
It just seems like people talk as if SN is peaceful like N or inert gas with hood. It doesn't seem that way to me. It seems painful and scary and it takes time.
But did you read an experience where they described it as painful and scary?
I know the waiting game part, that was my main issue with it from the start, but like I said, I have no choice.
 
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SweetDreams500

Narcissistic gay NEETcel
Apr 4, 2021
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It just seems like people talk as if SN is peaceful like N or inert gas with hood. It doesn't seem that way to me. It seems painful and scary and it takes time.
I don't think anyone's ever claimed SN is as peaceful as N or inert gas. SN is the poor man's N
 
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Butterfly65

Butterfly65

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Oct 28, 2020
157
But did you read an experience where they described it as painful and scary?
I know the waiting game part, that was my main issue with it from the start, but like I said, I have no choice.
I've read accounts of vomiting and stomach pain, headache racing heart...
 
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the_final_countdown

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Dec 29, 2020
337
There was one guy who was paralyzed I think, spent all his money on hotels and food, then drank SN, but had panic SI and wanted to live.

He didn't.
 
SweetDreams500

SweetDreams500

Narcissistic gay NEETcel
Apr 4, 2021
234
I've read accounts of vomiting and stomach pain, headache racing heart...
That's child's play compared to other readily accessible poisons. SN isn't meant to be perfect, but it's super cheap, accessible, relatively peaceful, and has a low chance of leaving you with permanent damage.
 
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HopelessFight

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Jan 31, 2021
740
It's peaceful in the sense you pass out after around 20 minutes after which you don't feel anything anymore. The first 20 minutes are absolutely not fun based on the reports available, but also not horrible.
 
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mini_weeny

Every cradle is a grave
Jan 5, 2021
340
Where did you see it was anything but?
I suspect it's not as peaceful as the claim that is made, but I don't have any other options.
Now that new thread about having woken up after taking the SN has me more concerned about the efficacy versus any type of discomfort, I need my method to kill me, above all else, just need it to get the job done.
Where's that thread ??
 
Butterfly65

Butterfly65

One step closer
Oct 28, 2020
157
It's peaceful in the sense you pass out after around 20 minutes after which you don't feel anything anymore. The first 20 minutes are absolutely not fun based on the reports available, but also not horrible.
That 20 minutes would seem like an eternity. :(
 
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BottomlessPit

Staring at the edge
Apr 28, 2021
423
That 20 minutes would seem like an eternity. :(
This is what scares me the most about this method. Just sitting there, heart racing, waiting for your own death. But excluding N, this is the only method that I could see myself going through with. I could never jump from a building or hang myself. The SI would kick in to the max, and I'd be scared af. But drinking a salty glass of water? I can do that.
 
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Revered

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Mar 6, 2021
50
With propranolol to slow your heart rate and benzos to kill your anxiety it sounds like a relatively peaceful way to go. My method of choice anyway. You do you.
 
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KuriGohan&Kamehameha

KuriGohan&Kamehameha

想死不能 - 想活不能
Nov 23, 2020
1,803
Personally I am only using SN for myself due to the inaccessibility of other methods. If I had other options, I would not be turning to SN.

I have tried to hang myself, and when I was testing the durability of my noose, the sensation of being choked was so horrible that I knew I could never try it again. Unreliable, extraordinarily painful methods like hanging are out of the question for me.

Unfortunately, the truly peaceful methods are off-limits if you are a common, everyday individual who doesn't have connections to veterinary medicine or something of that nature. I've seen the risks people take a chance on in order to obtain N, and there's too much at stake for me to even consider it.

SN does not seem like the ideal way to go. Despite this, I feel like I have no choice but to use this method, and have to cling to hope that the supplemental medications will lessen some of the pain when it is my time.

Many people probably feel like SN is the lesser of the evils when compared to other ctb methods, taking into account factors like reliability and colleteral damage.

I wish that humans did not have to be backed into a corner where a tranquil exit is completely inacessible, but sadly the modus operandi of anti-choice/pro-lifers is to ban anything remotely peaceful, so that only violent and agonising methods exist in their wake. The supposed logic behind this is that by removing any relatively painless ways out of this world, people will be dissuaded from ctb due to fear of the last resort type of methods.

I find it incredibly cruel.
 
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loopylou

Learn to fly
Jan 11, 2021
884
I am not understanding why people feel SN is peaceful? It seems like it is anything but.
I took what I thought was really pure SN but also added the luxury items benzo and propranolol. No pain killers tho. I drifted off peacefully no panicking
 
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SweetDreams500

Narcissistic gay NEETcel
Apr 4, 2021
234
I took what I thought was really pure SN but also added the luxury items benzo and propranolol. No pain killers tho. I drifted off peacefully no panicking
what happened? where you saved?
 
0utsider

0utsider

Member
Dec 9, 2020
37
Well you can somewhat alleviate the bad symptoms by taking benzos to calm yourself and meto to stop yourself from puking. SN may be far from perfect but it isn't meant to be. Its the most easily accessible method that doesn't trigger your SI so far, and it is extremely clean in terms of aftermath. No bloated hanging corpse, no stain on the sidewalk, no brain bits on the wall. You can ctb at night and nobody will think of checking on you because you're normally asleep at the time.
It ain't perfect, but it is very damn convenient.
 
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loopylou

Learn to fly
Jan 11, 2021
884
what happened? where you saved?
I don't know. I don't think my SN was pure enough or went to nitrate through a long shipping process. There was enough to turn my lips really blue, my finger nails and my toe nails blue. I was out for about a day and a half. I still have the SN so when I get my head together again I will test it
 
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mini_weeny

Every cradle is a grave
Jan 5, 2021
340
I took what I thought was really pure SN but also added the luxury items benzo and propranolol. No pain killers tho. I drifted off peacefully no panicking
Why are you still alive ?? What went wrong?
 
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Butterfly65

Butterfly65

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Oct 28, 2020
157
This is what scares me the most about this method. Just sitting there, heart racing, waiting for your own death. But excluding N, this is the only method that I could see myself going through with. I could never jump from a building or hang myself. The SI would kick in to the max, and I'd be scared af. But drinking a salty glass of water? I can do that.
It's not the act of drinking the salty glass of water it's what comes after that in the next 30 min that is nothing but peaceful. I suppose if you have the correct drugs to go along with it then it can be easier but if you have anxiety like I do then the ensuing anxiety that comes from the racing heart and symptoms of the SN taking its effect would be unbearable.
This is what scares me the most about this method. Just sitting there, heart racing, waiting for your own death. But excluding N, this is the only method that I could see myself going through with. I could never jump from a building or hang myself. The SI would kick in to the max, and I'd be scared af. But drinking a salty glass of water? I can do that.
It's not the act of drinking the salty glass of water it's what comes after that in the next 30 min that is nothing but peaceful. I suppose if you have the correct drugs to go along with it then it can be easier but if you have anxiety like I do then the ensuing anxiety that comes from the racing heart and symptoms of the SN taking its effect would be unbearable.
With propranolol to slow your heart rate and benzos to kill your anxiety it sounds like a relatively peaceful way to go. My method of choice anyway. You do you.
My way is nitrogen and hood. But SN would be next I suppose. I'm not sure if want to break the law by trying to order N
 
BottomlessPit

BottomlessPit

Staring at the edge
Apr 28, 2021
423
It's not the act of drinking the salty glass of water it's what comes after that in the next 30 min that is nothing but peaceful. I suppose if you have the correct drugs to go along with it then it can be easier but if you have anxiety like I do then the ensuing anxiety that comes from the racing heart and symptoms of the SN taking its effect would be unbearable.
I actually meant exactly that, I just didn't express it well enough. I am scared about those endless minutes after drinking the SN too. What I meant was that the probability that I manage to drink the water is higher than the probability that I would manage to jump from a building. Thus, SN is the easier method to start, even though the ensuing process isn't peaceful.
 
Greenberg

Greenberg

nitrogenexit.blogspot.com
Jun 28, 2020
1,062
I don't know. I don't think my SN was pure enough or went to nitrate through a long shipping process. There was enough to turn my lips really blue, my finger nails and my toe nails blue. I was out for about a day and a half. I still have the SN so when I get my head together again I will test it
Are you sure you took the proper dosage as per the protocol?
 
Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
I am not understanding why people feel SN is peaceful? It seems like it is anything but.

I personally don't see myself using SN (even if I was able to get hold of it) since I'm still leaning more towards mechanical methods or CO. However, compared to other OD/poison methods its pretty quick which seems like the biggest appeal. Other ODs might leave you conscious for hours or days, they might not even kill you until your organs fail.

The right complimenting medications and something to distract you during that time is probably the biggest key to lessen the anxiety as much as possible.

Hopefully someday there will be something found that's even more peaceful, like N but more readily available.
 
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Anonymous_A

Arcanist
Oct 4, 2020
411
It's not the act of drinking the salty glass of water it's what comes after that in the next 30 min that is nothing but peaceful. I suppose if you have the correct drugs to go along with it then it can be easier but if you have anxiety like I do then the ensuing anxiety that comes from the racing heart and symptoms of the SN taking its effect would be unbearable.

It's not the act of drinking the salty glass of water it's what comes after that in the next 30 min that is nothing but peaceful. I suppose if you have the correct drugs to go along with it then it can be easier but if you have anxiety like I do then the ensuing anxiety that comes from the racing heart and symptoms of the SN taking its effect would be unbearable.
Most of the people on here misinterpret the word 'peaceful' when it comes to SN and suicide in general.

'killing you rself isnt meant to be easy'

Obviously there is N, but still people are still going to find a way to assume that's not peaceful.

Let's totally be honest here, an anxiety attack/breathing fast etc with SN it's most likely due to the body's reaction to adrenaline/thought process.

Damn, if somebody had a gun at me, about to kill me (in a non suicidal scenario) I'd be probably do everything that happens when one takes SN lol
 
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Jemo_

No_other_way_outta_this_sh#thole
Apr 22, 2021
42
I am not understanding why people feel SN is peaceful? It seems like it is anything but.
Sn, in my opinion is RELATIVELY peaceful.
Being the poor man's n, I think this sn is unmatched by other relatively either more costly or more painful methods.
It is peaceful only if all the other variables are catered for:
The headache is countered by taking painkillers prior to ctb,
Vomiting is countered by taking the right antiemetics,
And for the racing heart, it is not painful, you only feel like you're from some exercise, plus you'll be unconscious in the process of feeling so.
 
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Last chance

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Feb 6, 2021
346
I think it's the waiting to die that puts me off SN. Hanging may be more painful but once you start you are actively in the process of dying and with any luck unconscious relatively quickly. Inert gas and you are out within minutes.

There's something about drinking something,knowing it's inside you and having to sit there waiting for 20/30 minutes for it to kick in that feels really unsettling.
 
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Octavina

Octavina

Paint the black hole blacker
Jan 9, 2021
186
As someone who's failed an SN attempt and has chronic stomach issues and nausea due to bulimia, sadly because I messed up and didn't follow Stans guide or anything, I suffered severely. I took no painkillers, antiemetics or benzos and I regret it a lot. There was no pain but what's easily just as bad or if not worse of an experience was experiencing syncope, body on fire feeling Racing heart and lightheadedness. Yes it something I experience weekly due to low electrolytes but it is always terrifying when my vision and hearing goes muffled, and start seeing stars. It's just SN made those symptoms unbearable to go through again, and sadly because I vomited a few minutes after and failed to re dose I ce am still here today.
 
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I want to end it

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Apr 29, 2018
475
I have heard from people who failed that they had some nausea and dizziness, then didn't remember anything after that. No pain at all. The pph has an observed case where someone experienced drowsiness and then passed out. I don't understand all the fear mongering about this method?
 
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