SN worries

[Ghostinplainsight]

I read so many posts about SN and it really seems like a huge comfort to be able to just own it so it's there if needed. However i'm so worried to try and buy it because i live in the uk and i really don't want a welfare check or to cause trouble in any way or waste police time. People say get a po box but i don't understand how that helps.

I can't decide if it's worth it to try and buy it. Not even sure what i'm supposed to say to the company when ordering as i feel so dumb, what if i say the wrong thing?

I have rope but it's more of a scary death to me than just drinking something and waiting and not being able to undo it if si kicks in. I feel like i can't cope with all my worries right now it's really eating at me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also just wish for a reliable poison and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have that, all I wish for is a death like never waking again, I just wish for no more suffering, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.