I have just created this account today, and upon inspection it seems like the only source I could find that has it legitimately in the usa (I am certain there are other sources out there but I have little time left. Will have to make the very final decision before the end of next week. I do have access to a firearm of some type.
But here is the main point. I have been burned out of some amount of usd, twice. I admit that I could (in hindsight "should") have vetted the source better. Then I stumbled upon an old article relating to the SN topic and further found the blue bird account then that brings us to this.
Without giving away very much information about my self as a human. I am/was military associated. Situation is currently unclear. I was put through nearly 2 years of "testing" that I was never informed about. It was myself and x amount of others. Enough to say that it's gotten very difficult to remember every name and face. When it was approaching that 2 year mark they were less people than fingers I have. (10, if you were curious.) It took 2 trips to a specific 4th floor wing, 1 internal DoD affairs social worker. At least a dozen reports from others that followed suite. I was not the first to start that chain of events. But I was quick on my feet to figure out that these people were actually believing us. A mentally damaging 3 months went by after those reports were actually set into action, that was when I was sent home with quite literally zero details of if I was in the service still or not. And calling multiple offices on post let to no answers. Fast forward 2 months and a call from a private number showed up, I answered.
That call has haunted me every day since then.
Among a full deck of other arguably small "haunts" let's call them.
When I left post my only thought was get home, now. Hindsight strikes again when I should have taken a 3rd trip to the 4th floor in order to pursue the civilians who were helping the situation. Would have resulted in an actual diagnosis.
The doctor said it isn't a proper evaluation but over the various conversations we had and among the aids who took notes when we spoke separately:: Clinical depression, mild stage ptsd with much likelihood of worsening, and visions of grandeur.
Oh and one other thing just to let you know that I am still being screwed by the civilian world. I will only mention two words. Verifiable blackmail.
TLDR: I tried to source SN and failed twice due to both my own faults and finding that SN has become highly regulated on us sources. I don't have to time to invest in earning someone's trust the "proper" way.
Ps: I left out a ton of details and didn't mention anything about personal life or locations. Other than its us based. I can't say that I know anybody on this site but that you for offering a place to write a resemblance of a note without putting others in jeopardy, thank you.
Final edit - never sourced the SN plus the looming constraints of time. Today is the day.
But here is the main point. I have been burned out of some amount of usd, twice. I admit that I could (in hindsight "should") have vetted the source better. Then I stumbled upon an old article relating to the SN topic and further found the blue bird account then that brings us to this.
Without giving away very much information about my self as a human. I am/was military associated. Situation is currently unclear. I was put through nearly 2 years of "testing" that I was never informed about. It was myself and x amount of others. Enough to say that it's gotten very difficult to remember every name and face. When it was approaching that 2 year mark they were less people than fingers I have. (10, if you were curious.) It took 2 trips to a specific 4th floor wing, 1 internal DoD affairs social worker. At least a dozen reports from others that followed suite. I was not the first to start that chain of events. But I was quick on my feet to figure out that these people were actually believing us. A mentally damaging 3 months went by after those reports were actually set into action, that was when I was sent home with quite literally zero details of if I was in the service still or not. And calling multiple offices on post let to no answers. Fast forward 2 months and a call from a private number showed up, I answered.
That call has haunted me every day since then.
Among a full deck of other arguably small "haunts" let's call them.
When I left post my only thought was get home, now. Hindsight strikes again when I should have taken a 3rd trip to the 4th floor in order to pursue the civilians who were helping the situation. Would have resulted in an actual diagnosis.
The doctor said it isn't a proper evaluation but over the various conversations we had and among the aids who took notes when we spoke separately:: Clinical depression, mild stage ptsd with much likelihood of worsening, and visions of grandeur.
Oh and one other thing just to let you know that I am still being screwed by the civilian world. I will only mention two words. Verifiable blackmail.
TLDR: I tried to source SN and failed twice due to both my own faults and finding that SN has become highly regulated on us sources. I don't have to time to invest in earning someone's trust the "proper" way.
Ps: I left out a ton of details and didn't mention anything about personal life or locations. Other than its us based. I can't say that I know anybody on this site but that you for offering a place to write a resemblance of a note without putting others in jeopardy, thank you.
Final edit - never sourced the SN plus the looming constraints of time. Today is the day.
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