BeforeYouFallAsleep
a corpse is talking
- Oct 11, 2023
- 53
I managed to get some SN and it should arrive in maybe 1/2 weeks. I haven't gotten a shipment update since 01 Nov, which is a bit concerning but we'll see.
So with the possibility of escape, I get a few thoughts that I never managed to voice to certain people. Mainly a girl who ironically saved my life 2 years ago. We went to school together and now I'm pretty sure we both had a crush on each other. We had pretty frequent contact for the time I wasn't doing too well mentally. That stopped when I had my first stay at a clinic/psych ward. Since then it's mostly radio silence, except for I guess birthday wishes.
I really want to tell her, that I am grateful that she was there for me and am still alive cause of her, but given the fact that I would have the option to ctb soon, I am contemplating if it is selfish to reappear in her life.
It just seems that I never had the chance to say a proper "thank you" and move on, with a lot of these words still unsaid.
So with the possibility of escape, I get a few thoughts that I never managed to voice to certain people. Mainly a girl who ironically saved my life 2 years ago. We went to school together and now I'm pretty sure we both had a crush on each other. We had pretty frequent contact for the time I wasn't doing too well mentally. That stopped when I had my first stay at a clinic/psych ward. Since then it's mostly radio silence, except for I guess birthday wishes.
I really want to tell her, that I am grateful that she was there for me and am still alive cause of her, but given the fact that I would have the option to ctb soon, I am contemplating if it is selfish to reappear in her life.
It just seems that I never had the chance to say a proper "thank you" and move on, with a lot of these words still unsaid.