
VikingHagstrom
Member
- Sep 8, 2021
- 38
Hello to all
I booked a hotel to CTB. I have not eaten anything since yesterday.
I will only use the SN (20g with less water possible) with a backup glass and already took 800mg Ibuprofen.
I wish I would have interacted more with members here but my social skills are so bad. It wasn t always like this but since a few years my mental health is degrading. It reached a point where I messed up absolutly everything and though I am not too old (would be 28 next month) I don't want to stay around longer, suffering and causing pain to the few people I have left.
This morning I went for a walk and even though the sun was shining, birds where singing, the nature surounding me was verdant I didn t feel anything. Just an immense bordedom. I can t feel anything anymore.
I have BPD, I was addict to cannabis then I replaced it with alcohol and it kinda fucked me up bad. I had friends, girlfriends, family relationship, many work opporrunities, but over the years I destroyed everything.
Anyway, I hope it won t be too distressing after I ingest the SN but I just want it to be over quickly.
I will update once I take it
I booked a hotel to CTB. I have not eaten anything since yesterday.
I will only use the SN (20g with less water possible) with a backup glass and already took 800mg Ibuprofen.
I wish I would have interacted more with members here but my social skills are so bad. It wasn t always like this but since a few years my mental health is degrading. It reached a point where I messed up absolutly everything and though I am not too old (would be 28 next month) I don't want to stay around longer, suffering and causing pain to the few people I have left.
This morning I went for a walk and even though the sun was shining, birds where singing, the nature surounding me was verdant I didn t feel anything. Just an immense bordedom. I can t feel anything anymore.
I have BPD, I was addict to cannabis then I replaced it with alcohol and it kinda fucked me up bad. I had friends, girlfriends, family relationship, many work opporrunities, but over the years I destroyed everything.
Anyway, I hope it won t be too distressing after I ingest the SN but I just want it to be over quickly.
I will update once I take it