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VikingHagstrom

VikingHagstrom

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Sep 8, 2021
38
Hello to all
I booked a hotel to CTB. I have not eaten anything since yesterday.

I will only use the SN (20g with less water possible) with a backup glass and already took 800mg Ibuprofen.

I wish I would have interacted more with members here but my social skills are so bad. It wasn t always like this but since a few years my mental health is degrading. It reached a point where I messed up absolutly everything and though I am not too old (would be 28 next month) I don't want to stay around longer, suffering and causing pain to the few people I have left.

This morning I went for a walk and even though the sun was shining, birds where singing, the nature surounding me was verdant I didn t feel anything. Just an immense bordedom. I can t feel anything anymore.
I have BPD, I was addict to cannabis then I replaced it with alcohol and it kinda fucked me up bad. I had friends, girlfriends, family relationship, many work opporrunities, but over the years I destroyed everything.

Anyway, I hope it won t be too distressing after I ingest the SN but I just want it to be over quickly.

I will update once I take it
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I understand that this life can be unbearable when everything is so hopeless. I wish you peace in whatever happens, I hope that you find what you are looking for.
 
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VikingHagstrom

VikingHagstrom

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Sep 8, 2021
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I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I understand that this life can be unbearable when everything is so hopeless. I wish you peace in whatever happens, I hope that you find what you are looking for.
Thank you
 
mrselfdestruct

mrselfdestruct

Brought your forecast and a shovel.
May 10, 2022
31
Godspeed, may you find peace whatever decision you make. Good luck ❤️
 
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DreamSurfer

DreamSurfer

Beyond this reality the waves of peace await
Apr 8, 2022
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BPD is such a struggle.

Sorry to see you go but wishing you peace for whatever journey you choose. Good luck.
 
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VikingHagstrom

VikingHagstrom

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Sep 8, 2021
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BPD is such a struggle.

Sorry to see you go but wishing you peace for whatever journey you choose. Good luck.
Hello yes it s a difficult condition
Thanks for your message

My sn is disolved in water, will smoke a cigarette
 
Sittichmutter

Sittichmutter

Student
Sep 16, 2021
164
I am sorry to hear about your pain.
We are not bodies with souls. We are souls living in bodies. We do not die.
I am sorry to hear about your pain.
We are not bodies with souls. We are souls living in bodies. We do not die.
Remember this. It would be better If you started. But is your decision.
I wish you lots of love.
Sorry.
It would be better If you stayed.
 
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Dot

Dot

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Sep 26, 2021
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= alwys ok 2 chnge ur mnd if u nd 2
 
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VikingHagstrom

VikingHagstrom

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Sep 8, 2021
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Thank u guys. I just drunk the first glass, it is indeed very salty but totally drinkablr
Thank u guys. I just drunk the first glass, it is indeed very salty but totally drinkablr
I already wanna throw up but will do my best not to
I threw op
Feel hot
 
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Someone123

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Oct 19, 2021
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I hope you are able to find peace. Do you have any other meds? If not it can still work, but the chances are better with some of the other meds from Stan's Guide, especially an antiemitic.
 
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LifeHasNoOptIn

LifeHasNoOptIn

Worst Life Ever
Mar 31, 2022
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Wishing you a quick and peaceful journey :heart:
 
markimobzzdeasui

markimobzzdeasui

Life is a cruel joke
Oct 24, 2021
1,151
Hope you find the peace that you long desired
 
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Smart No More

Visionary
May 5, 2021
2,734
Poor guy! Hope they didn't suffer terribly! Always find these kind of posts hard to digest.
 
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dredd1981

dredd1981

All these moments will be lost in time
May 1, 2022
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So sorry my friend, I hope you had a peaceful journey
 
Imissyoumydarling

Imissyoumydarling

a very majestic chicken cat
May 7, 2022
107
Hey man, sorry I didn't see this in time. Wish I could have said goodbye to you properly. I don't think we'd spoken, but I do want you to know I truly care and I hope you're feeling happier now.
 
Achlys

Achlys

So tired...
Apr 23, 2022
143
I"m sorry I didn't see this post earlier. I wish you a peaceful journey.
 
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