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in a few hours, i will be attempting with SN . im currently writing this with everythinf ready and set up, im just waiting for everyone else to go to sleep

some of you who have access to the sanctuary may have seen my head up yesterday, and for those wondering about the protocol i will be using its also in that post: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/attempting-ctb-with-sn-tomorrow-my-protocol.231458/

i really have nothing esle to say. i took a warm bath earlier today to relieve and clean myself, and i have been fasting for around 36 hours now, so i am pretty hopeful for this attempt, as i also have everything needed on the typical protocol except the benzos

i'm very glad to be sharing this precious moment with you all. im making this thread so when i go through with it, i can give live feedback about how it feels and how it goes, and answer whatever questions some of you may have.






 
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Have a safe journey. I hope you find what you're looking for🤗❤️
 
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Cyc

It's my fight.
Jan 22, 2026
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I hope you find peace
 
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Time To Wake Up
Jan 21, 2026
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Be at peace !! <3
 
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Thinking of you now...Wishing you peace
 
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seagullsonapiano

but does it even matter?...
Dec 10, 2025
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You can do it! We're thinking of youu :3
 
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laid out the whole set up now
i will begin in the next xx:00, 43 minutes from now
oh shit i forgot the water
 
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lamy's sacred sleep

lamy's sacred sleep

Nope your too late i already died
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im gonna miss you

your music reccs (absolute fire)
and
you genuinely being interested in and responded to all the silly things i've said
among other things

you've been an amazing friend
 
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im gonna miss you

your music reccs (absolute fire)
and
you genuinely being interested in and responded to all the silly things i've said
among other things

you've been an amazing friend

you honestly carried bro, you made this forum 10 times better i love you
 
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Arvayn

Arvayn

Face the end.
Nov 11, 2025
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Farewell. May your death be painless and merciful.
 
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TheEmptyVoid

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in a few hours, i will be attempting with SN . im currently writing this with everythinf ready and set up, im just waiting for everyone else to go to sleep

some of you who have access to the sanctuary may have seen my head up yesterday, and for those wondering about the protocol i will be using its also in that post: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/attempting-ctb-with-sn-tomorrow-my-protocol.231458/

i really have nothing esle to say. i took a warm bath earlier today to relieve and clean myself, and i have been fasting for around 36 hours now, so i am pretty hopeful for this attempt, as i also have everything needed on the typical protocol except the benzos

i'm very glad to be sharing this precious moment with you all. im making this thread so when i go through with it, i can give live feedback about how it feels and how it goes, and answer whatever questions some of you may have.







I hope you find eternal peace.
 
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soul2realm

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Oct 12, 2025
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Have a safe journey. God bless you.
 
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just took the painkillers
 
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lamy's sacred sleep

Nope your too late i already died
Nov 22, 2024
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so what are you doing / gonna do
while replying to this thread?
 
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so what are you doing / gonna do
while replying to this thread?

right now im literally just following the protocol and keeping an eye on this thread, posting live updates
im currently crushing the propranolol now
 
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jerkbybile

jerkbybile

SPIRAL OUT
Jan 21, 2026
9
be safe. i will keep you in my thoughts.
 
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it has pretty much turned into a fine powder the big pink chunks are just the shells
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it turned into this pink liquid
also i just to 3 metos (30mg)
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so yeah im now measuring out the SN i will be making 3 drinks
 
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FadingSnowFake

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Nov 25, 2024
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How are you feeling now? Thank you for sharing a bit of your journey with us, I'm sorry that it has come to this for you. I'll be going to a beach today and keep you in my thoughts as I listen to Summer Beach. Sending love and wish you all the best in peace.
 
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i have just finished making the SN drinks theyre very yellowish
no odor
How are you feeling now? Thank you for sharing a bit of your journey with us, I'm sorry that it has come to this for you. I'll be going to a beach today and keep you in my thoughts as I listen to Summer Beach. Sending love and wish you all the best in peace.

im feeling calm :) im relaxed i have taken all the medications needed except for the SN and propranolol. which is in about 12 minutes
 
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otium

otium

looking for the peace i crave
Aug 10, 2025
49
Godspeed, I hope you find your peace.
 
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FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,598
Whatever happens, whatever you decide, we are here :heart:
 
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alright here we go
the propranolol mixture is fucking awful. just downed half of it only i cant do the rest
Not evene the sn tasted that bad as the propranolol
im having a lolipop
hey, SN doesnt even taste half as bad as i expected it to
just tastes like seawater
i can already slightly feel it lol
guys holy shit
it feels almost immediate
yeah no it feels like shit km sweatu and everything
can nare
y breathe and isnides are burninf
 
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FadingSnowFake

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Nov 25, 2024
1,598
Sad to see you go, will miss seeing you around. Peace and love
 
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lamy's sacred sleep

Nope your too late i already died
Nov 22, 2024
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how are you doing?

hope it's fairly painless my hb
 
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Suicidalastronaut

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Jan 13, 2026
12
How does one acquire sn?
 
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dewdfish

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Nov 30, 2025
57
I hope you're at peace now. Safe travels ❤️
 
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idontknowwhatiam

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Sep 10, 2025
45
I wish I knew how to obtain SN and everything else for this protocol. I don't think I can't obtain SN since I'm in the USA.
 
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darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
2,483
good luck,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering 🫂:heart:
 

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