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weeping<3willow

weeping<3willow

he/she
Oct 14, 2025
37
i love u dude. i hope ur misery ends. im sorry it came to this
 
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BradGuy123

Specialist
Jul 6, 2025
335
I wish I knew how to obtain SN and everything else for this protocol. I don't think I can't obtain SN since I'm in the USA.
I live in the USA as well. SN is very hard to obtain from what I hear. I haven't tried. I don't know where to get it from and if I tried it would probably trigger a welfare check from the local police. One federal lawmaker has proposed a bill to ban individuals from obtaining it. The anti-choice people don't want people to have autonomy of their own bodies. They want to force people to suffer through whatever circumstances they are going through no matter how horrible. I am not looking to CTB right now but I do believe I should have that right if I choose it some day.
 
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Bitter Almonds

Member
Jan 16, 2026
29
Find your peace.
 
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sanctionedusage

sanctionedusage

sanctioned sausage
Sep 17, 2025
628
this was in the middle of my usual sleeping hours, i knew i probably wasn't gonna make it in real time.
rest in peace 🫂 i hope the initial discomfort went away quickly
 
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shegotaway

shegotaway

yare yare daze
Jan 8, 2026
7
wish u already found the peace! 🫂
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,824
hey, SN doesnt even taste half as bad as i expected it to
just tastes like seawater
i can already slightly feel it lol
guys holy shit
it feels almost immediate
yeah no it feels like shit km sweatu and everything
can nare
y breathe and isnides are burninf
As I tasted seawater just now, I thought of you. Hope you found peace.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,259
I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
800
I hope you don't suffer anymore, goodbye 💚
 
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lanadelreyisgod223

lanadelreyisgod223

Member
Jan 9, 2026
51
godspeed honey, it was always a pleasure to see you in threads. i hope you find peace no matter what happened.
 
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RichardFirst

RichardFirst

Specialist
Jan 16, 2021
385
Fair thee well and find your peace, my friend.
 
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SymphonyOfSuffering

SymphonyOfSuffering

Member
Nov 19, 2025
28
Hope uve found peace my goat
 
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deadngoresurgery

deadngoresurgery

Jezebel
Jan 10, 2026
80
in a few hours, i will be attempting with SN . im currently writing this with everythinf ready and set up, im just waiting for everyone else to go to sleep

some of you who have access to the sanctuary may have seen my head up yesterday, and for those wondering about the protocol i will be using its also in that post: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/attempting-ctb-with-sn-tomorrow-my-protocol.231458/

i really have nothing esle to say. i took a warm bath earlier today to relieve and clean myself, and i have been fasting for around 36 hours now, so i am pretty hopeful for this attempt, as i also have everything needed on the typical protocol except the benzos

i'm very glad to be sharing this precious moment with you all. im making this thread so when i go through with it, i can give live feedback about how it feels and how it goes, and answer whatever questions some of you may have.







i'm sorry it had to be this way. but i hope you will rest in peace <3
 
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Dawns

Dawns

Student
Apr 5, 2023
151
alright here we go
the propranolol mixture is fucking awful. just downed half of it only i cant do the rest
Not evene the sn tasted that bad as the propranolol
im having a lolipop
hey, SN doesnt even taste half as bad as i expected it to
just tastes like seawater
i can already slightly feel it lol
guys holy shit
it feels almost immediate
yeah no it feels like shit km sweatu and everything
can nare
y breathe and isnides are burninf
I hope you found peace ☮️ 🫶
 
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valleyofthedolls

Member
Oct 17, 2022
50
Why didn't they provide more updates after taking SN? Just one update about it burning? That's not good
 
meddle

meddle

pink floyd is half of my personality
Jan 11, 2024
373
Why didn't they provide more updates after taking SN? Just one update about it burning? That's not good
because its hard to use a phone when your fingers are numb and you are feeling weak and dizzy. source: i took sn and that was what i felt
 
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Aflame5926

Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
460
because its hard to use a phone when your fingers are numb and you are feeling weakness and dizziness. source: i took sn and that was what i felt
and you survived?!?!?!????? are ya still ok?
 
meddle

meddle

pink floyd is half of my personality
Jan 11, 2024
373
and you survived?!?!?!????? are ya still ok?
haha, yeah. im a coward, so i took only 2 g instead of 25 g. the process took much longer, the symptoms appeared approximately 1.5 h later. so i was found and placed in the icu. and, well, thats how i survived 🫠🫠🫠 but i can tell from that experience that sn is a solid way to go. if you take enough and wont be found, then you will 100% die
 
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ilovenewyork

Experienced
Nov 16, 2025
252
yeah no it feels like shit km sweatu and everything
can nare
y breathe and isnides are burninf
"Sweating, can barely breathe, insides burning."
Doesn't seem peaceful, although I hope it was
 
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SchizoPolyGymnast

SchizoPolyGymnast

Paragon
May 28, 2024
932
Somewhere...there will be rest.
 
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Harrier

Student
Mar 31, 2026
177
"Sweating, can barely breathe, insides burning."
Doesn't seem peaceful, although I hope it was

Yeah, but see how this person mispelled words at the end?

It may not have been perfectly peaceful, but we know that this person is probably at peace.

May he/she be at peace.
 

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