SN in a couple hours

[MideonNViscera]

Well, here I am. I have ibuprofen, benzos, Seroquel, antacids, two water bottles with 50ml of water and two baggies with 25g of SN each.

I'm in my car, in a parking lot. My 8 hour fast will be complete at 4:30, which is an hour and 20 minutes from now. By 5:30 it will be dark.

I'm anxious to get it over with. I have been sitting in my car for over 3 hours now just chewing my fingernails until they bleed and smoking.

I put my back seats down and have a pillow in the trunk so I can lay down. My phone doesn't charge well in my car but I think it will hold out long enough that I can listen to music as I go.

Everyone who matters has already been told the things that matter, and nobody is going to be surprised. It's the best I could do, but it also means I have literally nothing to do while I wait.

I know I didn't deserve for my life to end up this way, and I know it could have been so much better. It did, and it wasn't though. It makes me fucking furious, but all I could do with that fury is hurt people so it's pointless. I can only turn it inwards, and do the ultimate hurt to myself.

 

[littlelady774]

I wish you the best. Also, be careful about doing it in the parking lot.. someone might find you and interrupt things

 

[Pentobarbital_Plz]

Well, here you are. :)
I hope it goes well for you. I hope it's easy.
May you find True Peace!

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry life has brought you to this point. I hope you have a peaceful journey and find freedom from your suffering.

 

[Regen]

I am sorry for your pain and that there is no other option for you. I hope your phone hold on!! I can imagine that the waiting is not too easy. I wish you everlasting peace and endless love. May your transition be good, fast and peaceful. May you be in peace with your dicision

 

[stilhavinightmares]

What kind of parking lot are you in? I am so sorry your life has led to this, and I hope you transition peacefully.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

You'll be in my thoughts.

 

[MideonNViscera]

Just a mall parking lot. Hide in plain sight. I already did a test run in broad daylight, and once I crawl into my trunk nobody can see me.

 

[pained_soul]

Thinking of you and wishing you peace

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you peace and love. Sorry life has brought you to this.

 

[stermc]

I hope you find peace. See you on the other side, soon

 

[MideonNViscera]

Thanks for the support, everyone.

Let's get started. Ibuprofen, down you go.

 

[almostoutofhere]

So many people leaving recently . Wishing you luck.

 

[yyytry]

Good luck, may you find peace

 

[Szinuus]

Safe travels.

 

[Miss Anthropy]

All of the best and a peaceful transition!

 

[tchaik18401893]

I hope you find peace <3

 

[donealready]

 

[MideonNViscera]

Alright, time for the other pills. Half hour to SN.

 

[pained_soul]

Alright, time for the other pills. Half hour to SN.

How you feeling?

 

[MideonNViscera]

How you feeling?

Scared and sad, and thinking about the people I will miss but reassuring myself I wasn't going to see them again anyway.

 

[rpxrpl]

Scared and sad, and thinking about the people I will miss but reassuring myself I wasn't going to see them again anyway.

What do you mean? Were they already out of your life or do you mean the messages you sent?

Good luck by the way. Best wishes.

 

[my-end]

Scared and sad, and thinking about the people I will miss but reassuring myself I wasn't going to see them again anyway.

I wish you peace and acceptance and relief.

 

[MideonNViscera]

What do you mean? Were they already out of your life or do you mean the messages you sent?

Good luck by the way. Best wishes.

They were out of my life. I moved 3500km from the woman I love, and she said I abandoned her and hasn't talked to me since. My family set me up and won't let me see my niece or dog again. That's really all I ever had.

 

[rainwillneverstop]

hey.
Are you feeling sure in your decision?
I hope you're staying warm since you're in your car.

 

[Dot]

Sendng u gd thghts - srry thngs hve turnd out ths wy fr u

As alwys = ok 2 chnge mnd @ n.e tme

Wht musc wll u listn 2

 

[MideonNViscera]

hey.
Are you feeling sure in your decision?
I hope you're staying warm since you're in your car.

Yeah man. I wish it didn't come to this, but it did.

 

[SwissSuicideLady]

Best wishes for your journey

 

[Dizzylady80]

I'm so sorry it's come to this. I hope you're comfortable bb, be easy on yourself I hate that life has brought you here

 

[MideonNViscera]

Thanks guys, so much. I am gonna go now though. I just want to be alone with my thoughts and focus on what's important to me. Sorry.

I wish you all the best. I wish everyone the best, even if they aren't here.