toofargone6969
Wandering
- Apr 29, 2023
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I'm completing the final touches on my SN plan that I hope to use for real on October 2nd. I've been spending the past couple weeks tying up loose ends, the hardest of which was saying goodbye to my best friend of 16 years, my beloved dog that I had to put down due to liver cancer. It was excruciatingly painful to watch my soulmate pass away but so peaceful for her as they injected her with nembutal, the good stuff. I miss my baby so much and wish I could go the way she did.
But this is all I've got. I've had the SN since April from a source that's no longer available -CCS. My plan is roughly as follows...
12-14 hour fast (the last thing I want in my mouth is chocolate lol or chocolate and ice cream)
Naproxen or ibuprofen taken several times throughout the day (not sure on the timing or if I'll even include it)
Start liquid fast 3 hours before SN
20-30mg domperidone 1 hour before SN
40-80 mg propranolol 1 hour before SN
10mg lorazepam 45 minutes before
I'm not 100% certain on the timing of prop and benzos yet. I've been experimenting this week to get a feel for the meds.
I tried 10mg domperidone last week after waking up so around 15 hours of fasting - no side effects at all. Will test 20mg on Tuesday also on an empty stomach and long fast.
I tried just 20mg propranolol a few days ago and it reduced my resting heart rate from 90bpm to 72 and then 64 over the course of a couple hours. I'll try 40mg next to see if it works faster and what it does to my resting heart rate. I did feel more calm.
I've left a day or two between med tests to allow for a full understanding of each drug. I already take a small 1mg dose of lorazepam nightly for many months now but tonight I went for 6mg to see how sleepy I get, when, etc. Luckily I have access to enough lorazepam (tablets and liquid) to use as much as I need for the SN plan. I was thinking 10mg but I'm not sure yet since I have a small tolerance after months of my nightly 1mg dose
I may have to try another large benzo dose combined with propranolol to see what that's like. As well as confirming my body can handle the full dose of antiemetics with no side effects. I will keep this thread updated with my findings and my final plan. Hopefully it can be of some use to members here and encourage others to test their medications beforehand to make sure they agree with your body and you wont have any unexpected side effects.
I'm very scared to go through with this but it's my only way out (I don't want to hang) so I'm planning it as carefully as I can and as comfortable I can allow myself to be while ingesting literal poison.
Any critique to my plan is welcomed and I'm open to discussion about the elements of my plan. I hope we can all achieve inner peace. I feel so numb and just want it all to be over. Having to plan this out makes it so painful.
The 6mg lorazapema is hitting me hard and typing is becoming difficult
that's a good sign
I feel like I'm smothered by a gravity blanket.
It's been over a hour so even liquid dosing take a while to kick in as its bee over an hour.
But this is all I've got. I've had the SN since April from a source that's no longer available -CCS. My plan is roughly as follows...
12-14 hour fast (the last thing I want in my mouth is chocolate lol or chocolate and ice cream)
Naproxen or ibuprofen taken several times throughout the day (not sure on the timing or if I'll even include it)
Start liquid fast 3 hours before SN
20-30mg domperidone 1 hour before SN
40-80 mg propranolol 1 hour before SN
10mg lorazepam 45 minutes before
I'm not 100% certain on the timing of prop and benzos yet. I've been experimenting this week to get a feel for the meds.
I tried 10mg domperidone last week after waking up so around 15 hours of fasting - no side effects at all. Will test 20mg on Tuesday also on an empty stomach and long fast.
I tried just 20mg propranolol a few days ago and it reduced my resting heart rate from 90bpm to 72 and then 64 over the course of a couple hours. I'll try 40mg next to see if it works faster and what it does to my resting heart rate. I did feel more calm.
I've left a day or two between med tests to allow for a full understanding of each drug. I already take a small 1mg dose of lorazepam nightly for many months now but tonight I went for 6mg to see how sleepy I get, when, etc. Luckily I have access to enough lorazepam (tablets and liquid) to use as much as I need for the SN plan. I was thinking 10mg but I'm not sure yet since I have a small tolerance after months of my nightly 1mg dose
I may have to try another large benzo dose combined with propranolol to see what that's like. As well as confirming my body can handle the full dose of antiemetics with no side effects. I will keep this thread updated with my findings and my final plan. Hopefully it can be of some use to members here and encourage others to test their medications beforehand to make sure they agree with your body and you wont have any unexpected side effects.
I'm very scared to go through with this but it's my only way out (I don't want to hang) so I'm planning it as carefully as I can and as comfortable I can allow myself to be while ingesting literal poison.
Any critique to my plan is welcomed and I'm open to discussion about the elements of my plan. I hope we can all achieve inner peace. I feel so numb and just want it all to be over. Having to plan this out makes it so painful.
The 6mg lorazapema is hitting me hard and typing is becoming difficult
that's a good sign
I feel like I'm smothered by a gravity blanket.
It's been over a hour so even liquid dosing take a while to kick in as its bee over an hour.
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